In the clearing stands a Boxer, and a fighter by his trade
Today marks an ending. 90 bubbles spread black with a number 2 pencil and 19 years ended without ceremony. There will be no fanfare, no celebration, which was at my request. Now arrives a time I have not seen since I was 5 years old. I am no longer a student. I left school as if I intended to be back every day for the next 25 years. Then when I thought it over, trampled over the transition in my mind I had the most powerful and uncharacteristic desire.
I was totally seized with the desire to drive to Galveston bay, park my car on the sea wall, walk to the beach, and drown myself in the Gulf.
Now before anyone freaks out over that, I must say that when I had this desire, I wasn't even equating it with suicide. It was just an unexplainable urge to, how can I say, add some propriety to the change, an equivalent. Please, nobody start worrying about me. I'm sure you all think I'm a wack job now and I'm disposed to agree.
The moment was extremely compulsive, reactionary and excessive. I would like to think I have never been any of these things, always attempting to keep to sobriety in all things. So, what the fuck happened today? I have no idea. I'm confounded.
And so, I am a graduate. The first member of my family to have a degree and the first female in my extended family as well. I feel very proud, if not a little startled. It's all very weird.
Congratulations to all my fellow graduates and especially to my beloved Amber. You did it girl! And to all those who are still on the path, the end is in sight! Just make sure it doesn't end on the Jetti ^^
I was totally seized with the desire to drive to Galveston bay, park my car on the sea wall, walk to the beach, and drown myself in the Gulf.
Now before anyone freaks out over that, I must say that when I had this desire, I wasn't even equating it with suicide. It was just an unexplainable urge to, how can I say, add some propriety to the change, an equivalent. Please, nobody start worrying about me. I'm sure you all think I'm a wack job now and I'm disposed to agree.
The moment was extremely compulsive, reactionary and excessive. I would like to think I have never been any of these things, always attempting to keep to sobriety in all things. So, what the fuck happened today? I have no idea. I'm confounded.
And so, I am a graduate. The first member of my family to have a degree and the first female in my extended family as well. I feel very proud, if not a little startled. It's all very weird.
Congratulations to all my fellow graduates and especially to my beloved Amber. You did it girl! And to all those who are still on the path, the end is in sight! Just make sure it doesn't end on the Jetti ^^