IM NOT FUCKING SPECIAL! GODDAMMIT!
Im so fucking tired of people telling me how cool I am, or how Im such a great catch, or how mature and wise I am. Fuck! Im sick of it! Jesus! Im not anything special, fuck. Im not better then everyone. All my life Ive had people fucking tell me that! Im not! Goddammit! Wow! I got to swim with Dolphins, whoopdeedoo! Who fucking cares? Everyone just sees it as bragging! and it sure didnt help me out with anything that actually matters. Ooohh Im so mature, yeah cause my parents havent been able to get their shit together in almost 19 years so I had to fucking grow up. I want to be a goddamn 16 year old! I want to have acted like a fucking 10 year old! I dont want everyone to tell me how I have a good head on my shoulderss. I want to be able to go out and drink with my friends and act like a dumbass, like everyone I hate. I want that!! "You're so wise for your age Alix, You're more mature then most kids at your age, Im so proud of you for not falling into drugs and Alcohol, Alex" I dont fucking want this god damn shit anymore!! I have a stranger who Ive talked to a few times online telling me that he would seriously do ANYTHING for me, like Im some great person, like my personality is so different from everyone elses! but the one person I want to hear it from doesnt think that. Everyone else, complete strangers are telling me that! What the fuck is going on!?