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Fucking Colorado!! The first thing she fucking tells me and its a goddamn interview in Colorado! And it isnt even a real job, its at Winter Park, a ski resort a ski resort that is only open in the fucking winter! Fuck this shit, Nothing is going to work out. Why am I working? Not to make any real money? And the main incentive of my working is to see Jess, and I cant even make enough money to see him, plus he probably doesnt even fucking want to see me. Why go to school? I cant afford California anyway, and if I go to Utah or something Ill just get stuck there somehow and have to live there, after school. This is such bullshit, I dont have the mentality to handle all this fucking shit.