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So I finally handed in my Hausarbeit today, after the night and morning of HELL. I didn't end up getting to sleep until 4:00, mostly because I was going through pages of corrections and reorganizing my citations. So then after 4 1/2 hours of what one could call "sleep", I went to the copy shop (I almost wrote "coffee shop" . . . wow, I am way too tired) and printed it out. But then I realized since the copy shop's computer doesn't like Chinese, the whole thing was messed up. All the pages were incorrectly numbered and the Chinese characters looked bad. So then I had to run to this place in the Innenstadt where I can print stuff from an actual computer. But before I could do that I had to change the format AGAIN, because the program they used was different. I eventually got it printed and the guy charged me 5 fucking Euros for it . . . grrrrrrrrr..
My professor was actually really nice about the whole thing. I forgot that he likes me a lot, mostly because I'm American. He's going to correct my Hausarbeit for me by next Friday, which I was not expecting at all. I hope this doesn't mean that he's just not going to read my paper at all, because that would make me mad. But then again, maybe I'll get a better grade if he doesn't read it.
Was this all worth it, one might ask? Here is a summary of my paper:
Title: Between City and Countryside, Intelligentia and Peasantry: Conflicts in the Establishment of the Chinese Propaganda System
Thesis: (see entry from June 12th)
Total # of Pages: 25 (1 title page, 1 table of contents, 21 pages of text, and 2 pages of pictures)
Total # of Citations: 53 (from 21 different sources . .. that's right, 21 different fucking sources)
Total Amount of Time Spent: WAY too much. I have literally been writing every day for the past 3 weeks or so, and before that I worked on it off and on. I haven't really slept very well in about 2 weeks.
I'm actually kind of sad. For the first time in my life I can actually say that I worked really hard on something. Usually when I do something that's not that good I can say "Well, that's what you get for being lazy! If you had worked harder, you would have done a great job!" But this time I can't say that. I can honestly say that I worked as hard as I could on this paper. I read so much and wrote for so long. I went over sentences over and over and over again. I don't really do anything but work. I woke up early and I wrote. I went to bed late, because I was still writing. Yeah sure I occasionally went to class or watched some TV or took a walk as a break, but for the most part I wrote my paper.
I'm sad, because I worked so hard and I'm still not happy with my paper. I'm angry, because my topic was really hard compared to the other kids' topics. Anh had fucking "Buddhism in China". All she had to do was pick up 2 or 3 books and copy them down. And, sine she's a native speaker, she didn't have to have her paper corrected, so it took a lot less time.
I'm frustrated, because I know I couldn't really have done anything differently. I did all that I could, and I still failed. This is horrible.
The rest of today is devoted to resting. Tomorrow I have to start working . . . again
My professor was actually really nice about the whole thing. I forgot that he likes me a lot, mostly because I'm American. He's going to correct my Hausarbeit for me by next Friday, which I was not expecting at all. I hope this doesn't mean that he's just not going to read my paper at all, because that would make me mad. But then again, maybe I'll get a better grade if he doesn't read it.
Was this all worth it, one might ask? Here is a summary of my paper:
Title: Between City and Countryside, Intelligentia and Peasantry: Conflicts in the Establishment of the Chinese Propaganda System
Thesis: (see entry from June 12th)
Total # of Pages: 25 (1 title page, 1 table of contents, 21 pages of text, and 2 pages of pictures)
Total # of Citations: 53 (from 21 different sources . .. that's right, 21 different fucking sources)
Total Amount of Time Spent: WAY too much. I have literally been writing every day for the past 3 weeks or so, and before that I worked on it off and on. I haven't really slept very well in about 2 weeks.
I'm actually kind of sad. For the first time in my life I can actually say that I worked really hard on something. Usually when I do something that's not that good I can say "Well, that's what you get for being lazy! If you had worked harder, you would have done a great job!" But this time I can't say that. I can honestly say that I worked as hard as I could on this paper. I read so much and wrote for so long. I went over sentences over and over and over again. I don't really do anything but work. I woke up early and I wrote. I went to bed late, because I was still writing. Yeah sure I occasionally went to class or watched some TV or took a walk as a break, but for the most part I wrote my paper.
I'm sad, because I worked so hard and I'm still not happy with my paper. I'm angry, because my topic was really hard compared to the other kids' topics. Anh had fucking "Buddhism in China". All she had to do was pick up 2 or 3 books and copy them down. And, sine she's a native speaker, she didn't have to have her paper corrected, so it took a lot less time.
I'm frustrated, because I know I couldn't really have done anything differently. I did all that I could, and I still failed. This is horrible.
The rest of today is devoted to resting. Tomorrow I have to start working . . . again