Can't wait for tomorrow
Kai had his presentation at Cambridge yesterday, the one we've been preparing for since October. I'm kind of nervous and have spent all of yesterday and today looking at the clock trying to make time go by faster so that it will somehow be tomorrow afternoon. If he were at all considerate he would send me an e-mail before class tomorrow, but . . .
a). I don't think he realizes how freaked out I am about it. I try to play it cool around him and be supportive so that I don't make him nervous.
And b). He doesn't like to do too much e-mailing outside of his office. He's still in that "scared of technology" phase . . . and he gets a lot of administrative e-mail crap that annoys him, so going on his e-mail account is very depressing for him.
So I'm just going to have to wait for class tomorrow . . . goddammit. I want to know how it went so I can be prepared to either have to comfort him or bounce around with joy. I mean, I worked hard on this thing for him too, so whether or not he succeeds reflects a lot on me . . . so I really really really want to know . .. tomorrow . . . tomorrow.
In other non-Kai related news, I've been looking at grad schools. I think I want to get into either UC Berkeley or Harvard . . .but Stanford is also looking like an acceptable alternative. I think if I really apply myself I can get in. Or I could apply somewhere in England like Clare (my new English "mate") suggested . . . or not . .. I just checked, most of the Chinese programs in England are based more on language studies and business/econ shit. And the history departments don't have a very supportive base in Chinese history. So I guess it's America for me . . . or maybe I'll do my Masters in GERMANY *screams in fear*.
Why is life so complicated?
a). I don't think he realizes how freaked out I am about it. I try to play it cool around him and be supportive so that I don't make him nervous.
And b). He doesn't like to do too much e-mailing outside of his office. He's still in that "scared of technology" phase . . . and he gets a lot of administrative e-mail crap that annoys him, so going on his e-mail account is very depressing for him.
So I'm just going to have to wait for class tomorrow . . . goddammit. I want to know how it went so I can be prepared to either have to comfort him or bounce around with joy. I mean, I worked hard on this thing for him too, so whether or not he succeeds reflects a lot on me . . . so I really really really want to know . .. tomorrow . . . tomorrow.
In other non-Kai related news, I've been looking at grad schools. I think I want to get into either UC Berkeley or Harvard . . .but Stanford is also looking like an acceptable alternative. I think if I really apply myself I can get in. Or I could apply somewhere in England like Clare (my new English "mate") suggested . . . or not . .. I just checked, most of the Chinese programs in England are based more on language studies and business/econ shit. And the history departments don't have a very supportive base in Chinese history. So I guess it's America for me . . . or maybe I'll do my Masters in GERMANY *screams in fear*.
Why is life so complicated?