Class Yesterday
I sucked in class yesterday. Normally I wouldn't care, because I'm in Germany and nothing really counts anyways, but it was Kai's class and I wanted to say something intelligent. But I think I got myself so worked up about being intelligent and saying something that I scared myself into losing all self-confidence I could have had. Kai didn't call on me, though . .. I think he sensed I was rather scared of talking about Maoism in German, even though I knew the material and had actually read shit for the class. I still feel disappointed though . .. even though I guess it wasn't so horrible for me to not want to talk about something academic in a foreign language with a whole bunch of native speakers right there. However, I've decided to try to not get myself so worked up about it next time, and maybe I'll say something smart! One can only hope . . .
My poor dear Kai, he had to teach the same class twice in one day, one right after the other. I went to ask him a question about the assignment after his second time, and he looked so tired. He was even too tired to talk to me in English, which he ALWAYS wants to do. Lol, and I was too tired to talk to him in German so there was kind of a bit of a communication gap. My poor sweet Kai.
However, I was incredibly tired too for some reason. Normally when I don't get too much sleep it's not so horrible. But I tried to go to the library to do some more reading for my paper on early Chinese socialists, and I was falling asleep as I was reading. In 45 minutes I read and took notes on about 6 pages. So then I gave up and decided to hang out at home and watch Law and Order and chat with friends. That was a good decision . . . but today I'm going to get work done. After my tutoring session, of course, which starts in 1 minute!!! So I guess I'll go.
Oh, and btw, Prague was awesome! I'll talk about it later, though!
My poor dear Kai, he had to teach the same class twice in one day, one right after the other. I went to ask him a question about the assignment after his second time, and he looked so tired. He was even too tired to talk to me in English, which he ALWAYS wants to do. Lol, and I was too tired to talk to him in German so there was kind of a bit of a communication gap. My poor sweet Kai.
However, I was incredibly tired too for some reason. Normally when I don't get too much sleep it's not so horrible. But I tried to go to the library to do some more reading for my paper on early Chinese socialists, and I was falling asleep as I was reading. In 45 minutes I read and took notes on about 6 pages. So then I gave up and decided to hang out at home and watch Law and Order and chat with friends. That was a good decision . . . but today I'm going to get work done. After my tutoring session, of course, which starts in 1 minute!!! So I guess I'll go.
Oh, and btw, Prague was awesome! I'll talk about it later, though!