Life
For this is the meaning of life...
Or so says Eric Idle. Lately, I've been thinking about how little I think about my mortality. I can hear a small voice in the back of my head saying, "Now why would you think about that?" As someone who desperately wants to play Mrs Lovett in Sweeney Todd and laughs when the Repo Man in Repo: The Genetic Opera rips out a man's intestines and makes a puppet out of him, I should ponder it a bit more than I do. But I don't and I think it's because I'm busy. I mean, obviously I don't mean that I have no free time. It's just limited. And in that free time, I'm either watching TV (too much, might I add) or using my computer.
I'm a procrastinator by nature and yet artistic. Isn't that a fun combination? Especially when you have this great idea but...you need to clear out the DVR and after all Frasier is on! You don't want to miss that! Just one more episode before you go to bed and then you realize: *Gasp!* I wanted to paint that mural on my wall today. I was writing a song and I wanted to continue it. I was supposed to drag that old drawing of Narcissa Malfoy out and finish it! In other words, bugger...
I need to make an effort to do things NOW, as in right this second, instead of saying, "Oh, I can finish that later." No, you can't. You need to finish that right now and then you need to clean your room" (I really do, actually!). This is my resolution and I cannot wait until New Years to make it. I will be less of a procrastinator (I can't stop; it's a disease and we're all secretly zombies...but you didn't hear that from me).
And here's how death ties in: I recognize on a fairly regular basis all of the ways that I could die (and yet, I do not contemplate the fact that I might not be here tomorrow; strange, innit?), and if I died I couldn't jump around on the sofa while watching the battle sequences in Pirates of the Caribbean or describe how I would stalk Professor Snape to music or even scold my friend for not knowing how to make pasta. These things are important to me, so I will do them now. Well, not now because I'm in an office at a theatre but soon, soon. I promise (...or do I? Muahaha!...No, I do).
Or so says Eric Idle. Lately, I've been thinking about how little I think about my mortality. I can hear a small voice in the back of my head saying, "Now why would you think about that?" As someone who desperately wants to play Mrs Lovett in Sweeney Todd and laughs when the Repo Man in Repo: The Genetic Opera rips out a man's intestines and makes a puppet out of him, I should ponder it a bit more than I do. But I don't and I think it's because I'm busy. I mean, obviously I don't mean that I have no free time. It's just limited. And in that free time, I'm either watching TV (too much, might I add) or using my computer.
I'm a procrastinator by nature and yet artistic. Isn't that a fun combination? Especially when you have this great idea but...you need to clear out the DVR and after all Frasier is on! You don't want to miss that! Just one more episode before you go to bed and then you realize: *Gasp!* I wanted to paint that mural on my wall today. I was writing a song and I wanted to continue it. I was supposed to drag that old drawing of Narcissa Malfoy out and finish it! In other words, bugger...
I need to make an effort to do things NOW, as in right this second, instead of saying, "Oh, I can finish that later." No, you can't. You need to finish that right now and then you need to clean your room" (I really do, actually!). This is my resolution and I cannot wait until New Years to make it. I will be less of a procrastinator (I can't stop; it's a disease and we're all secretly zombies...but you didn't hear that from me).
And here's how death ties in: I recognize on a fairly regular basis all of the ways that I could die (and yet, I do not contemplate the fact that I might not be here tomorrow; strange, innit?), and if I died I couldn't jump around on the sofa while watching the battle sequences in Pirates of the Caribbean or describe how I would stalk Professor Snape to music or even scold my friend for not knowing how to make pasta. These things are important to me, so I will do them now. Well, not now because I'm in an office at a theatre but soon, soon. I promise (...or do I? Muahaha!...No, I do).