To My Best Friend
I love you buddy, and miss you so much it hurts. You weren't at the door greeting me like you always did, and even now as I type you aren't here beside me. I'm so sorry I haven't been there. I know you would wait for me by the door, waiting. I know you expected me to come home. I had no way to explain to you why I moved away. I looked forward to your first visit to the new apartment. Most of all, I looked forward to today. The highlights of the day were supposed to be my first full paycheck from work, and going to Hercules to play with you. I'm here, you're not. Who's going to play with Hedgie? Who's going to keep Casey sane (or some reasonable approximation)? Who's going to watch over mom now that I've moved out? Who am I going to hold when I'm depressed and want to be left alone? That's the bitch of this whole thing, I don't have you to get me through this. You always accepted me for who I am, and loved me unconditionally. I wish I'd known that last night was all we'd have, I would have demanded that the vet open the cage so I could pet you one last time, and reassure you that I never really left you, that I always loved you. I just hope you know how much you meant to me, how much you meant to us.
Until we meet again...
Smokey
1995-2005
More than a mere dog!
Until we meet again...
Smokey
1995-2005
More than a mere dog!