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[cheshire913]

Based on my various minor brushes with clinical depression in the past, I think I'm almost qualified to admit that I am maybe, probably depressed. I feel exhausted all the time, and yet I have a hard time sleeping. I stay up all night and do absolutely nothing productive (which results in feelings of guilt). I never feel hungry, so I alternate

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[stevespoon]

I second that suggestion, I get in these cycles of inactivity and guilt too and I find that a lot of times the only thing that breaks it is making a change somewhere. For me it's most often starting or ending a friendship or relationship of some sort but it can just as easily be something like finding a new scene to hang out in (like a local music scene or roller derby or a hiking club or something) or finding a new job, or sometimes even just a drastic hair or clothing style change can really alter your outlook.

Anyway, the important thing to remember is that nothings ever as bad as it seems, nothing is forever and there's nothing in your life that you can't change if you want to bad enough.

It sounds like a lot of people from our class are feeling like this right now, given this post and the few others I still talk to, anyway. Probably because, as Libby points out, it's been 6 years now since we graduated, 6 years since we were supposed to quit being kids and start building our lives into something. Who can really say right now that things are moving along just as they thought? We all stall up here or there and we all make the occasional bad decision. It's natural that you're gonna get down from time to time when you look back and wonder where the time went so fast.

Anyway, I'm rambling as I often do and my reply is now larger than your post. All I'm saying is everyone feels like that from time to time and in a way it makes me feel a little better to know that even someone as cool and well put-together as you has her cycles of depression and moments of self doubt from time to time. Seriously though, you're doing fine, Becky. Just relax and find something that makes you happy for now, the other pieces of your life will settle into place given time as long as you keep focusing on something positive.

[cheshire913]

Heh, no kidding. What the heck is wrong with all of us? ;)

Anyway, thanks. Those are some great suggestions, and I really appreciate the compliment (even if it's not really all that true! ;p). <3