[LJ Idol 7: Optional Topic] Resolutions

[cheshire23]

I'm sure that I can claim hundreds of failed self-reinventions by now. Thousands, even

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[skylanth]

Good entry! Take the meds, they's good for you!

A resolution that I've made before, and I try to keep even now is "Realize you have to do stuff every day that you don't want to do. Do it for the exact reason that you don't want to do it." Keeps me from being lazy and...yeah, playing The Sims.

I find listening to Books on Tape while I do the things on my list keeps me unaware of the drudgery that is everyday chores.

CLEAN ALL OF THE THINGS!

[cheshire23]

A training session I was at when I started my job said something similar: "Successful people do the things unsuccessful people don't want to do. They don't want to do them, either, but they DO want the results, and they make the connection."

[ioianthe]

Before Ritalin, my brain was so full of my running to-do tally I felt like I couldn't think clearly about anything else , anything but my list, anything but not dropping the ball... Now the lists are just known, information isn't randomly clung to and I keep my daily pill supply in it's own bottle so I can easily check to see if I took my last pill. Great post. I really identify with it.

[cheshire23]

A lot of women with ADD have a previous misdiagnosis somewhere on the panic/anxiety spectrum. I think the running to-do list and the constant corollary of, "Oh shit, what did I forget to do THIS time? What thing did I fuck up NOW?" etc. has a lot to do with that.

Because yeah, I have panic attacks sometimes, and the vast majority of the time they're related to the idea that I have once again Failed At Adulthood and therefore I'm going to get fired/get evicted/lose every single friend I have/get the kids taken by CPS/die because some minor symptom I've procrastinated at getting checked is really a sign of some HORRIBLE DISEASE...etc.

I never realized just how much energy that burns.

[teaberryblue]

The other thing that has a lot to do with that is the historical propensity to wave away anything wrong with women as "hysteria." She can't have ADD! She's just anxious about nothing!

[stagger_lee77]

different thing but i'm committed to taking my meds because everyone and i depend on me taking my meds.

[cheshire23]

I'm not likely to do direct active self-harm without mine.

The thing that I refer to as "passive self-harm" (basically, complete lack of appropriate self-care) is another matter.

[cheshire23]

Making the lists can be very soothing.
Following the list is just one more thing that doesn't happen, one more proof of Failing At Adulthood.

[myrna_bird]

I sure can relate to the list making. Someone told me once, 'Stop Do-ing and just Be, for a change.' It works wonders when I can remember.