college....i hate that word.
i hate having to stand here and watch all my friends apply to all these schools, knowing that they'll have their choice because everyone will accept them. i hate knowing that i'm smart and i just totally screwed myself over by not trying in highschool. i hate feeling like i'm not going to go anywhere in life. i hate that i just found out the peace corps wants people w/ college degrees or 3-4 years work experience. i hate not knowing what to do with my life. i hate the things that have happened to me in these past 3 years and knowing that if they hadn't i might be in a completely differnt situation then i am now.
most of all, i hate the fact that i know everything will work out and the Lord has a plan for me but i still can't stop my self from getting all worked up about it and crying in front of my teacher.
dummy.
my mind is going in circles my mind is going in circles
i need Jesus.