9 months

[cheryltanying]

it's been 9 months since..

you made your decision..

you wrote your last and final note to your parents..

you started the engine..

stuffing the pipe from the exhaust to the car..

and had your last cigarette..

9 months since you entered the car and shut the door..

9 months since you listened to your songs on your laptop in the car..

9 months since you sat there inhaling the fumes..

9 months since the carbon monoxide made you sleepy..

9 months since you took your last breath

9 months and a few days since you last called me to make sure i was alright..

2 hours since i started thinking about your death..

10 mins since i stopped crying..

8 hours more and i'll be in school, having a shitty day..

because 9 months ago u left me for good.