im breaking down...
so ive been reading this book for msu, 'the kite runner' and im not going to lie, its a pretty good book. im almost finished with it. well, i thought at first i would be so happy and excited about moving away, but then i dunno. alot of stuff happened to me...i almost thought i lost a very good friend over just a stupid thing. and then i thought i couldnt loss this person bc i have known her since i was like 8 and she has lived across the street from me. then we talked about it. i said sorry for acting like a jerk, cause i do that alot, and now i think we are ok. then i was reading this book and this guys father dies. i first thought what if something ever happened to my mom while i was gone. she is the only parent i truly have. i thought about it for awhile and last night i cried before i went to bed. i dunno maybe its bc its 'that time of the month' or something, but ive just been to emotional. and then when i was talking to mike today i realized that i cant stand a day without seeing him. so i dunno what im gonna do. each day im breaking down and everyday im getting closer to leaving. also the other night when i hung out with katelin, jes, mal, and coco i realized that i wouldnt have girls nights like that for awhile. i realized that my friends mean so much to me. im gonna miss those girl talks and the staying up all night bonding. then when i talked to michelle today she told me she is sad. i said i wasnt and at the time i wasnt until i thought about it...i sat in my room and looked at the stuff i need to pack. thats not going to be my room anymore. well it will still be there but i wont see it everyday. instead ill be moving to a small 12 by 12 room. i cant believe this is all over. i couldnt imagine myself leaving my mom, my friends, my sister, michael....and i really am. eight days...i have only 8 days left...