i wonder.
"i never loved nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
i got lost in the sounds
i hear in my mind
all these voices
i hear in my mind
all this music
and it breaks my heart..
suppose i never ever met you.
suppose we never fell in love.
suppose i never ever let you
kiss me so sweet and so soft.
suppose i never ever saw you.
suppose you never called.
suppose i kept on singing love songs
just to break my own fall
just to break my fall..
all my friends say
that of course it's
gonna get better..
i know that i've had my doubts from time to time. i've wondered why he picked me.
i've wondered what i've done to deserve this.. because God knows i've done bad things.
and yet, that doesn't seem to matter to him.
he loves me, just me.
he doesn't care about all of the bad things i've done to other people. he doesn't care about the shitty things i've said.
he doesn't care that i don't always trust people, and he understands that sometimes, life is hard for me.
he wants to give me the best, not because he feels like he has to, but because he wants to.
he wants to make me happy, he wants to see ME smile. he wants to hold MY hand. he wants to kiss ME.
he understands me better than most.
he knows how to calm me down, how to talk to me. he knows how to handle me when i lose my temper.
he knows how to make me smile. he knows how to make me laugh.
he knows me better than i do sometimes.
he knows how to look right through me and know what i'm really thinking.
it's amazing. "
my friend wrote that.
her and i used to talk all the time... but we're not so close anymore.
i got so excited to read that from her when i went to check on how she was doing.
we used to talk about how we'd been fucked over so many times, and how we just wanted to fall in love. and she finally has. and i'm so happy for her.
i wonder if i'll ever get that.
ugh... i want it so bad i could cry.
i wonder if i'm settling.
i wonder if i'm just discouraged.
i wonder if i'm trying too hard.
i wonder if i'm not trying hard enough.
i wonder if i'm being stupid.
i wonder if this is the way it's supposed to be.
i wonder. wonder. wonder.
maybe it's better than wishing.
but i'm wishing for a lot of things too.
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
i got lost in the sounds
i hear in my mind
all these voices
i hear in my mind
all this music
and it breaks my heart..
suppose i never ever met you.
suppose we never fell in love.
suppose i never ever let you
kiss me so sweet and so soft.
suppose i never ever saw you.
suppose you never called.
suppose i kept on singing love songs
just to break my own fall
just to break my fall..
all my friends say
that of course it's
gonna get better..
i know that i've had my doubts from time to time. i've wondered why he picked me.
i've wondered what i've done to deserve this.. because God knows i've done bad things.
and yet, that doesn't seem to matter to him.
he loves me, just me.
he doesn't care about all of the bad things i've done to other people. he doesn't care about the shitty things i've said.
he doesn't care that i don't always trust people, and he understands that sometimes, life is hard for me.
he wants to give me the best, not because he feels like he has to, but because he wants to.
he wants to make me happy, he wants to see ME smile. he wants to hold MY hand. he wants to kiss ME.
he understands me better than most.
he knows how to calm me down, how to talk to me. he knows how to handle me when i lose my temper.
he knows how to make me smile. he knows how to make me laugh.
he knows me better than i do sometimes.
he knows how to look right through me and know what i'm really thinking.
it's amazing. "
my friend wrote that.
her and i used to talk all the time... but we're not so close anymore.
i got so excited to read that from her when i went to check on how she was doing.
we used to talk about how we'd been fucked over so many times, and how we just wanted to fall in love. and she finally has. and i'm so happy for her.
i wonder if i'll ever get that.
ugh... i want it so bad i could cry.
i wonder if i'm settling.
i wonder if i'm just discouraged.
i wonder if i'm trying too hard.
i wonder if i'm not trying hard enough.
i wonder if i'm being stupid.
i wonder if this is the way it's supposed to be.
i wonder. wonder. wonder.
maybe it's better than wishing.
but i'm wishing for a lot of things too.