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I applied at the grocery store yesterday, and Im hoping they will call me in the next couple of days. I really want a job. I hate sitting here all day alone. I guess it just freaks me out since the house got broken into.. and the fact that I dont know any of our neighbors. Im trying to change so many things about myself lately...but I dont even know where to begin. I thought that if I stopped drinking.. maybe things would get better, but of course, nothing has changed. All that has done is made me lose alot of my spontanious nature. I have also stopped sleeping for 14 hours at a time.. and that has only made my days seem longer.
So many little things have dissapeared between me and Ron.. Im not even sure that he's noticed. We used to ALWAYS shower together.. and now we dont even shower at the same time of day. We also used to fall asleep tangled in each other's arms.. and sleeping alone for two months has taken us each to our own respective sides of the bed to sleep facing away from each other. Maybe Im just over analyzing things.. Im not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me with this, because in reality, I am happy. Its just that here, my friends were missing from my life.. and when I went back to Michigan, I was so lonely after being with Ron day and night for months. No matter what, something will be missing.. since I cant be in two places at once.
So many little things have dissapeared between me and Ron.. Im not even sure that he's noticed. We used to ALWAYS shower together.. and now we dont even shower at the same time of day. We also used to fall asleep tangled in each other's arms.. and sleeping alone for two months has taken us each to our own respective sides of the bed to sleep facing away from each other. Maybe Im just over analyzing things.. Im not trying to make anyone feel sorry for me with this, because in reality, I am happy. Its just that here, my friends were missing from my life.. and when I went back to Michigan, I was so lonely after being with Ron day and night for months. No matter what, something will be missing.. since I cant be in two places at once.