Karma
So, I've always believed in the "what goes around comes around," "lie in the bed that you make," "reap what you sew" philosophies. Always. But today I got to thinking, and what I thoguht made me go "damn I'm a fucking bitch."
I was talking to my gramma and she was telling me that my dad and his cow wife were there at the house cause my dad's sick from his back. (he had major spinal surgery a few years ago, and never really recovered. Made him much worse, in fact) Gramma was saying that they had just come back from the ER cause he's not doing well whatever whatever. And I thoguht to myself, "karma." But then I was like, "Wow, Randie... what you're really saying by that is that he fucking deserves it." He deserves all this pain because of all the pain he's caused others. I was literally so disgusted with myself for thinking that. No one deserves the kind of physical pain my dad's in. But. If you believe in karma - that's basically what you're saying, right? It just seemed way more cold and heartless and bitchy then I usually am.
I dunno. I was just dissapointed in myself. :\