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I've decided that I'm the glue that holds my family together. And moving here has caused my family to become, well... unglued.
Normally I wouldn't think so highly of myself, but I've been doing some serious reflection. It's the only thing I can think of. The family fell apart after I moved. And even more after papa died. It's ridiculous.
Things are just getting weird at home. I don't feel "at home" when I'm there. And moreover, things seem soooo bizzare to me. When I say anything about it, the response is always "Uhh, that's how things are now."
I'm not homesick by any means, more like family-sick. Haha. If everyone could move up here, it would be awesome. Everyone's problems would be solved! seriously.
When I moved here, I really intended on visiting for birthdays and Christmas. Which would be about 5 or 6 times a year. Now I find myself checking my gas budget to see if I can make it down. Most times I can't.
It sucks.
No, I don't want to move back home... but.... *sigh* I dunno.
The things that have happened in the last 24hours are really making me wonder. I mean, no way could I make this much money at home. NO WAY. I couldn't have a job like this either. Plus.. it's Corpus.
On another note, I'm fucking tired. It's barley 3:30, and i can't leave until 6!!! My phone's off, so I can't text anyone. I'm cut off for the next few days unless someone decides to be a man and come up with the money. Which i highly doubt he will.
So, i'll just enjoy my days off while I pack. =/ With no contact to the outside world...
Normally I wouldn't think so highly of myself, but I've been doing some serious reflection. It's the only thing I can think of. The family fell apart after I moved. And even more after papa died. It's ridiculous.
Things are just getting weird at home. I don't feel "at home" when I'm there. And moreover, things seem soooo bizzare to me. When I say anything about it, the response is always "Uhh, that's how things are now."
I'm not homesick by any means, more like family-sick. Haha. If everyone could move up here, it would be awesome. Everyone's problems would be solved! seriously.
When I moved here, I really intended on visiting for birthdays and Christmas. Which would be about 5 or 6 times a year. Now I find myself checking my gas budget to see if I can make it down. Most times I can't.
It sucks.
No, I don't want to move back home... but.... *sigh* I dunno.
The things that have happened in the last 24hours are really making me wonder. I mean, no way could I make this much money at home. NO WAY. I couldn't have a job like this either. Plus.. it's Corpus.
On another note, I'm fucking tired. It's barley 3:30, and i can't leave until 6!!! My phone's off, so I can't text anyone. I'm cut off for the next few days unless someone decides to be a man and come up with the money. Which i highly doubt he will.
So, i'll just enjoy my days off while I pack. =/ With no contact to the outside world...