this is wut i feel lyk; wut i wrote down when i cried.
Nothing is ever gonna be right. I hate lyf, i hate it! oh god why cant u just freaking take my lyf away..at least omar's right about something, my lyf aint worth shyt. hah. why do i still lyk him? why is lyf so hard on me? no, lyf isnt a box of chocolates its more lyk a junk yard cuz im letting myself to throw it away. there's not one day where i dont cry. something always goes wrong. you see, if you had my lyf there would be no reason to live, you'd just want to wake up every morning wishing to die. there was only one tym when i didnt say that, but it was only for a month. god uhh! kno one cares about me, omar hates me, doesnt love me and let his "love" go to waste lyk that! baby betray me once, nana talks shyt behind my bak, i always have to deal with everyones problems, i dont get good grades, Meli's happy shes w/ william and it feels lyk if she doesnt have tym for me, sandra is a hypocrite and a backstabber, frank never listens to me and when he does; thats when i "pretend" to be happy cuz i never am. i live off w/ people who think im a slut or a hoe when the farthest i've gon with a guy is make out. all my family does is bitch and dont care about nuthing. ralphy never understands me all he talks about is Anisleidy and acts lyk im not there. brenda obviously doesnt care. every one thinks im gonna change...well wtf do u want me to do change? or quit at everything i try to succeed? naty is never there either. i have no one to talk 2. if some one else had my lyf or just read what i wrote..dont bullshyt you'd want to die 2. i've had about 12 boyfriends in my lyf and they have all lied, cheated and deceived me..all of them! and the one guy i really truly loved and thought he loved me back left me the fastest. what do i do when all i do is cry? who do i go to when all i do is hide? for freakin god's sake i've tried suicide!!!! i kno lyf is not fair but damn, there's always your moments what fucking moments? im fucking living hell! i freakin need to "pretend" im happy to get a fake smile on my face. im always keeping it inside its just to much. i cry everyday lyk if ur mother died. then i have to hide it from half the world and pretend im "okay" bull fucking shyt man i hate lyf!!