Updating is a pain in my ass...
OK... nothing much has been going on lately. I had a pretty good weekend, but it was topped by a nice little bitch fit at Kyle. I swear to God and everything else that people actually concider holy in this world that if he ever fucking does anything like that again, I'm going to beat the everloving hell outta him.
Speaking of Kyle... him and Mac are going out now, and they've already fucked. Yep the virgin whore is no longer a virgin... so that just leaves whore... lol, just kidding.... kind of.
Speaking of fucking... me and Daryl broke our little record. We've now accomplished 6 times in one day. Actually it was more like 6 times in 5 hours or something along those lines. *grins*
Mary and Ashley are now playing nice... which is good for them. I on the other had would really like to just get my hands on Ashley one time. Shit, I didn't mean that... well, yes I did just a little bit. The reason that Ashley gave Mary on why they broke up was a good one... this last one was, the others were fucking weak and total bullshit. I suppose I'll have to give her the Suicide Girls DVD back now... damnit.
I'm in 4th period right now... so yeah, I might have to leave pretty quickly... I'll appologize now.
Uuuuuhhh.... fuck I hate it when my brain goes from being filled with thoughts to absolutly nothing. Goddamn ADD.
OHMIGOD! I can do a zine as an art project for my theme! Its so awesome... well it isn't going to be an actual zine, its going to be in color and I'm only making one. But yeah other then all that its going to be a fucking awesome zine made by yours truely. *grins*
*does happy dance*
All that shit at Kyle's house wasn't the only thing I did this weekend though, don't get mixed up here... I also got to go up to Jacksonville for a day with my parents. It was pretty cool, we went to the Cummer ( *tee hee* ) Museum of Art and then we went to Chamblin Bookmine. I got a few awesome books, two on tattoos, one on how to make your own zine, and one of feminist essays. The only downside to the day was that when I was at the museum people were staring at me like I was some kind of freak or something. I felt outta place and uncomfortable.
Another thing I haven't put in here is that I now officially suffer from panic attacks. That's what was wrong with me, I wasn't dying or anything as dramatic as that, but yeah I freak out now. I'm so fucking pissed about it, I feel like a goddamn chihuahua now.
Blargh... finals start tomorrow. I am SO not ready for a good portion of them... I know I'll do alright on my English III final, I got a 97% on the pre-test that Mr.Pilling gave us today. But as for all the others, I'm not ready. Especially my math final... I feel so stupid in there most of the time that I want to just cry. On Friday I could only answer two problems on the quiz Mr. Flood gave us... and that was only because they were multiple choice... and only because I guessed. It was horrible. I was so pissed at myself, I still am. I don't know what happened to me, I used to be alright at math, now I couldn't do it to save my fucking soul. I just have to keep telling myself that I can always just wait until I'm 18 and quit if I fail this year... I think that's why I'm having panic attacks... because of all the stress I'm putting on myself. That and all the drama that has been hitting the fan lately. I swear, I fucking hate it... sometimes I just wanna punch people in the face for telling me all their problems and shit.
I wish I could just go... I don't know where, just for a little while, to just get up and leave to stay like a week somewhere. I need it bad, I'm going to snap and say or do some shit I'll regret later... either that or I'll get arrested for.... or put in AC. *shrugs* Hopefully its just the first one.
I don't know what else to talk about... there isn't really anything else that's going on... so I'll just go now... heh heh... ehem.
Kisses + Revolution,
Rikki/Cherry
Speaking of Kyle... him and Mac are going out now, and they've already fucked. Yep the virgin whore is no longer a virgin... so that just leaves whore... lol, just kidding.... kind of.
Speaking of fucking... me and Daryl broke our little record. We've now accomplished 6 times in one day. Actually it was more like 6 times in 5 hours or something along those lines. *grins*
Mary and Ashley are now playing nice... which is good for them. I on the other had would really like to just get my hands on Ashley one time. Shit, I didn't mean that... well, yes I did just a little bit. The reason that Ashley gave Mary on why they broke up was a good one... this last one was, the others were fucking weak and total bullshit. I suppose I'll have to give her the Suicide Girls DVD back now... damnit.
I'm in 4th period right now... so yeah, I might have to leave pretty quickly... I'll appologize now.
Uuuuuhhh.... fuck I hate it when my brain goes from being filled with thoughts to absolutly nothing. Goddamn ADD.
OHMIGOD! I can do a zine as an art project for my theme! Its so awesome... well it isn't going to be an actual zine, its going to be in color and I'm only making one. But yeah other then all that its going to be a fucking awesome zine made by yours truely. *grins*
*does happy dance*
All that shit at Kyle's house wasn't the only thing I did this weekend though, don't get mixed up here... I also got to go up to Jacksonville for a day with my parents. It was pretty cool, we went to the Cummer ( *tee hee* ) Museum of Art and then we went to Chamblin Bookmine. I got a few awesome books, two on tattoos, one on how to make your own zine, and one of feminist essays. The only downside to the day was that when I was at the museum people were staring at me like I was some kind of freak or something. I felt outta place and uncomfortable.
Another thing I haven't put in here is that I now officially suffer from panic attacks. That's what was wrong with me, I wasn't dying or anything as dramatic as that, but yeah I freak out now. I'm so fucking pissed about it, I feel like a goddamn chihuahua now.
Blargh... finals start tomorrow. I am SO not ready for a good portion of them... I know I'll do alright on my English III final, I got a 97% on the pre-test that Mr.Pilling gave us today. But as for all the others, I'm not ready. Especially my math final... I feel so stupid in there most of the time that I want to just cry. On Friday I could only answer two problems on the quiz Mr. Flood gave us... and that was only because they were multiple choice... and only because I guessed. It was horrible. I was so pissed at myself, I still am. I don't know what happened to me, I used to be alright at math, now I couldn't do it to save my fucking soul. I just have to keep telling myself that I can always just wait until I'm 18 and quit if I fail this year... I think that's why I'm having panic attacks... because of all the stress I'm putting on myself. That and all the drama that has been hitting the fan lately. I swear, I fucking hate it... sometimes I just wanna punch people in the face for telling me all their problems and shit.
I wish I could just go... I don't know where, just for a little while, to just get up and leave to stay like a week somewhere. I need it bad, I'm going to snap and say or do some shit I'll regret later... either that or I'll get arrested for.... or put in AC. *shrugs* Hopefully its just the first one.
I don't know what else to talk about... there isn't really anything else that's going on... so I'll just go now... heh heh... ehem.
Kisses + Revolution,
Rikki/Cherry