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I'm a bad kid!!!
I should be doing some of my crazy amounts of homework but I guess its good to get some things off my mind prior to doing so... right?
I have come to the conclusion I know happiness through a relationship and that's why I feel so lost right now.... I feel as though when I'm happy I want to share with that other person. To be on my own and happy I don't know what to do with myself! I'm happy so I want to make others happy and the person that it was easiest to do that with is the "other" I forgot what a really good mood was like and what to do with it when your in one... I am a very affectionate person and love being loved and want to love others. I used to be a super huggy person and that kinda faded out partly because John would get jealous... but! It's ok to be huggy! I can hug whomever I want! I can be friendly it's ok!!! and that can help share my happiness :-)
Although at the current moment I'm freaking out with projects... I'm still in a good mood and pretty easy going with the whole thing... I made a "plan of action" so if I follow that it looks like I'll be golden for monday... I need to finish my group project and edit my memoir... it's possible right?
I might be a bad kid later and hang out with Cole for a bit.... even though I shouldnt take a break because I kinda accidentally already took one... 2 1/2 hour nap... woo yay me
Oh today was the MTEL I got super lost in Lynn and ran out of gas... then Alex came to the rescue and... I finally got to my test.... 3 some hours later... awesome... so that score is going to suck... I didn't get to write the essays but I did everything else in the 2 hours I was there.... heh heh I planned on taking it twice anyways... after that I just wanted to go home... When I got home I figured it'd be a good idea to get an oil change... so I did that and while I waited I did my homework and Costa was there... he's always there when I go and he was being him... haha... "how's your uncle Ozzy???" "oh your a pro, your like always here" "careful there's some creepy guys in there" ect too bad he didnt ring me out he usually gives me a super sweet deal... then when I came home and sat in my bed to do homework... it knocked me out pretty bad... I woke up... yep... then ate a pomegranate.... now i'm here super stoked to do homework!!! yea!!!.... no... no... not at all.
I should be doing some of my crazy amounts of homework but I guess its good to get some things off my mind prior to doing so... right?
I have come to the conclusion I know happiness through a relationship and that's why I feel so lost right now.... I feel as though when I'm happy I want to share with that other person. To be on my own and happy I don't know what to do with myself! I'm happy so I want to make others happy and the person that it was easiest to do that with is the "other" I forgot what a really good mood was like and what to do with it when your in one... I am a very affectionate person and love being loved and want to love others. I used to be a super huggy person and that kinda faded out partly because John would get jealous... but! It's ok to be huggy! I can hug whomever I want! I can be friendly it's ok!!! and that can help share my happiness :-)
Although at the current moment I'm freaking out with projects... I'm still in a good mood and pretty easy going with the whole thing... I made a "plan of action" so if I follow that it looks like I'll be golden for monday... I need to finish my group project and edit my memoir... it's possible right?
I might be a bad kid later and hang out with Cole for a bit.... even though I shouldnt take a break because I kinda accidentally already took one... 2 1/2 hour nap... woo yay me
Oh today was the MTEL I got super lost in Lynn and ran out of gas... then Alex came to the rescue and... I finally got to my test.... 3 some hours later... awesome... so that score is going to suck... I didn't get to write the essays but I did everything else in the 2 hours I was there.... heh heh I planned on taking it twice anyways... after that I just wanted to go home... When I got home I figured it'd be a good idea to get an oil change... so I did that and while I waited I did my homework and Costa was there... he's always there when I go and he was being him... haha... "how's your uncle Ozzy???" "oh your a pro, your like always here" "careful there's some creepy guys in there" ect too bad he didnt ring me out he usually gives me a super sweet deal... then when I came home and sat in my bed to do homework... it knocked me out pretty bad... I woke up... yep... then ate a pomegranate.... now i'm here super stoked to do homework!!! yea!!!.... no... no... not at all.