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I probably should be blogging on my ning... by the way you guys should really check that blog site, it's pretty sick
Another couple of side notes... I just opened a fun size m&m's and there were no yellow or red... weird,... I miss the gym..., I wanna dance..., I'm addicted to the Drake cd... I detest my art and human development class because my teacher's ridiculous (I'll probably rant about that soon enough)... I want to art.... so badly... I want to figure draw... I need nudes!!!... I want to be in the darkroom.... I just want to have a good time
I don't really know what to write... I kinda would like to make this private and block certain people so I can just rant like I used to... but even then I don't feel like that many people read this regardless... I sorta want to bring back the old school "guy 1,2,3,4" business... haha maybe I will...
I don't think I'm good at this non relationship business given I'm happier but the lack of affection... totally not cutting it. I'm a very affectionate person and I love to share that with someone. I want someone to hold my hand and cuddle... and not to just to fill that void but to get that feeling when you know that this is the only person's hand you want to hold. At the same time I'm scared of that, I don't want to be in a relationship, I've lost myself twice and found myself for the second time. I really should just focus on myself for awhile. So maybe I can just wing it and open my arms up and embrace what comes my way?
I feel like I should be stressing with school but I'm not, i'm pretty mellow about it all. I'm getting my work done and just trudging along. I guess that's good, I don't think I'm working as hard as I could be... Oh! I can be a substitute teacher now! So I'm thinking about doing that during my christmas break because the Haverhill schools won't be out as long and they could probably use the help during that time too.
Today was an interesting day... not really but kinda amusing... I had A&H development with whore face and in her email she told us to meet in the library... but there was only 3 of us there... we got to look at some of the artist books that mass art collects... which are amazing... I held books that were worth... so much and I got to touch the art... amazing. After that we headed back to the classroom where we read each others artist books and neglected the essays that she wanted us to bring in... and then a group facilitated an assignment I was unaware of... And after class I waited to speak with her like she told me to then she told me she would finally email me back... to that email that I sent out... oh.... twice to her with no reply... cool. Luckily! when I escaped I met up with Di and we walked down to the Northeastern T stop so we could talk. Diana loves to keep me updated on the super drama that is occurring in her life which I throughly enjoy and can never really understand how it even begins. I can't imagine even getting myself into these dilemma's and if did... haha I wouldn't after our lovely talk I took a train to make sure I wasn't late for my train... my train that ended up being a half hour late... cool. And I didn't even have anything to amuse myself so I texted like it was my job. Finally I got home... and feeling entirely unambitious decided this was more fun than my not really existent homework for tomorrow...
Another couple of side notes... I just opened a fun size m&m's and there were no yellow or red... weird,... I miss the gym..., I wanna dance..., I'm addicted to the Drake cd... I detest my art and human development class because my teacher's ridiculous (I'll probably rant about that soon enough)... I want to art.... so badly... I want to figure draw... I need nudes!!!... I want to be in the darkroom.... I just want to have a good time
I don't really know what to write... I kinda would like to make this private and block certain people so I can just rant like I used to... but even then I don't feel like that many people read this regardless... I sorta want to bring back the old school "guy 1,2,3,4" business... haha maybe I will...
I don't think I'm good at this non relationship business given I'm happier but the lack of affection... totally not cutting it. I'm a very affectionate person and I love to share that with someone. I want someone to hold my hand and cuddle... and not to just to fill that void but to get that feeling when you know that this is the only person's hand you want to hold. At the same time I'm scared of that, I don't want to be in a relationship, I've lost myself twice and found myself for the second time. I really should just focus on myself for awhile. So maybe I can just wing it and open my arms up and embrace what comes my way?
I feel like I should be stressing with school but I'm not, i'm pretty mellow about it all. I'm getting my work done and just trudging along. I guess that's good, I don't think I'm working as hard as I could be... Oh! I can be a substitute teacher now! So I'm thinking about doing that during my christmas break because the Haverhill schools won't be out as long and they could probably use the help during that time too.
Today was an interesting day... not really but kinda amusing... I had A&H development with whore face and in her email she told us to meet in the library... but there was only 3 of us there... we got to look at some of the artist books that mass art collects... which are amazing... I held books that were worth... so much and I got to touch the art... amazing. After that we headed back to the classroom where we read each others artist books and neglected the essays that she wanted us to bring in... and then a group facilitated an assignment I was unaware of... And after class I waited to speak with her like she told me to then she told me she would finally email me back... to that email that I sent out... oh.... twice to her with no reply... cool. Luckily! when I escaped I met up with Di and we walked down to the Northeastern T stop so we could talk. Diana loves to keep me updated on the super drama that is occurring in her life which I throughly enjoy and can never really understand how it even begins. I can't imagine even getting myself into these dilemma's and if did... haha I wouldn't after our lovely talk I took a train to make sure I wasn't late for my train... my train that ended up being a half hour late... cool. And I didn't even have anything to amuse myself so I texted like it was my job. Finally I got home... and feeling entirely unambitious decided this was more fun than my not really existent homework for tomorrow...