I just realized it's my birthday tomorrow.
I'm leaving for Las Vegas with just my parents and friend Chris in a few hours.
Next 3 days will be sunny and windy between high 80s to low 90s, good cause I like warm weather.
I don't feel like going to Vegas considering I never really enjoyed it in the past 20 years of my life.
Yes in less than 24 hours I'll be 21.
My birthday never excites me, it's just nice that each year of my life I kind of earn more privileges.
...not that I ever take advantage of them.
So yes, Las Vegas for my 21st, not my idea.
It was my father's, whom I had a bad argument with yesterday morning.
Was a good idea months ago, now my siblings can't go, neither can friends.
Like I said my birthdays never excites me.
I tend to get depressed around this time of the year.
I honestly cannot figure out why.
I don't have a problem with aging, it's a part of life.
Must be that each year I turn a "significant" age (13, 16, 18, now 21) I am forced to have a big party or celebrate it in a dramatic way.
Last night or the night before I cried thinking about how bad things go or what inconveniences happen around or because of my birthday.
I t'd rather not mention past episodes athis moment.
I still need to pack.
In addition to this joy-killing blog...
I lost trust, faith, and hope in a relationship a long time ago.
Seems they have problems with change and we just piss each other off.
Work is fun sometimes and a good learning experience, but it stresses me out.
I don't know why they scheduled me after my "last day".
Now I have to make phone calls from out of town.
I'm just waiting for school to start, see if I'll survive 18 units this quarter.
Will my friends still be there?
I can't believe I'm still on the waiting list.
What a damn inconvenience again.
I miss my brother now that he's moved out.
And now my sister's leaving too.
I left first, I guess that fair.
Thank you brother for the "lucky $20 bill".
Wish me luck.
Next 3 days will be sunny and windy between high 80s to low 90s, good cause I like warm weather.
I don't feel like going to Vegas considering I never really enjoyed it in the past 20 years of my life.
Yes in less than 24 hours I'll be 21.
My birthday never excites me, it's just nice that each year of my life I kind of earn more privileges.
...not that I ever take advantage of them.
So yes, Las Vegas for my 21st, not my idea.
It was my father's, whom I had a bad argument with yesterday morning.
Was a good idea months ago, now my siblings can't go, neither can friends.
Like I said my birthdays never excites me.
I tend to get depressed around this time of the year.
I honestly cannot figure out why.
I don't have a problem with aging, it's a part of life.
Must be that each year I turn a "significant" age (13, 16, 18, now 21) I am forced to have a big party or celebrate it in a dramatic way.
Last night or the night before I cried thinking about how bad things go or what inconveniences happen around or because of my birthday.
I t'd rather not mention past episodes athis moment.
I still need to pack.
In addition to this joy-killing blog...
I lost trust, faith, and hope in a relationship a long time ago.
Seems they have problems with change and we just piss each other off.
Work is fun sometimes and a good learning experience, but it stresses me out.
I don't know why they scheduled me after my "last day".
Now I have to make phone calls from out of town.
I'm just waiting for school to start, see if I'll survive 18 units this quarter.
Will my friends still be there?
I can't believe I'm still on the waiting list.
What a damn inconvenience again.
I miss my brother now that he's moved out.
And now my sister's leaving too.
I left first, I guess that fair.
Thank you brother for the "lucky $20 bill".
Wish me luck.