I duno anymore...
Some times it's just too much, ya know?
I'm moving out this weekend... I'm worried about the adjustments that have to be made. I'm worried that I'm gonna be the only one adjusting, and I'll lose my mind. I'm leaving this house because I'm tired of doing shit for nothing. I don't wanna leave here just to go there and have things be the same if not worse.
I'm worried that too much time with his family and we'll start to hate each other. I'm worried that my Mom won't be able to handle doing things without me...or that just being alone with the kids and tony will make her even more miserable.
I've caused anough pain in the house...I guess it's time for me to leave.
Before I left CAPA...dunphy told me not to grow up so fast. Don't move out..don't get married..don't have kids...not yet. I'm still young...I should act it.
So much for that advice huh?
I'm moving this weekend...I feel like I'm married to a man who doesn't love me...
I love how I am so much like a person I never met.
I look like him...I act like him...I am apart of him and he is apart of me...yet I've never even met him...
And it amazes me how much I've fucked up my life...simply by having his genes.
Sometimes it's all so overwhelming...then I gotta just sit back and remember... I did this to myself.
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I'm moving out this weekend... I'm worried about the adjustments that have to be made. I'm worried that I'm gonna be the only one adjusting, and I'll lose my mind. I'm leaving this house because I'm tired of doing shit for nothing. I don't wanna leave here just to go there and have things be the same if not worse.
I'm worried that too much time with his family and we'll start to hate each other. I'm worried that my Mom won't be able to handle doing things without me...or that just being alone with the kids and tony will make her even more miserable.
I've caused anough pain in the house...I guess it's time for me to leave.
Before I left CAPA...dunphy told me not to grow up so fast. Don't move out..don't get married..don't have kids...not yet. I'm still young...I should act it.
So much for that advice huh?
I'm moving this weekend...I feel like I'm married to a man who doesn't love me...
I love how I am so much like a person I never met.
I look like him...I act like him...I am apart of him and he is apart of me...yet I've never even met him...
And it amazes me how much I've fucked up my life...simply by having his genes.
Sometimes it's all so overwhelming...then I gotta just sit back and remember... I did this to myself.
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