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we've been together 6 months, yet stuff from my past still haunts me. I know him well enough to know he really loves me, would never stand me up and will always be there. yet i always revert to the past and something happens that makes me (for a split second) think otherwise. Then I am amazed and happy as ever when he proves me wrong... and he's hurt that I put him in the unreliable category (for a minute). Will I ever get over all the shit that was dealt to me previously and just love and trust him completely? I am trying my hardest and every time I think I'm in the clear and will never go back to that mind frame, I do. Why can't I just completely forget my past and live in the great, wonderful, awesome now? I love him, I really do and I truly believe there is no one out there that is better then him.