Confused.
I know it's only November, but I'm so confused on what I'm going to do this summer. One thing's for sure: I will be completing my internship in either New York or Los Angeles. LA was my initial thought, considering my cousin has connections and could help me out. But, when I was visiting NYC this past August, I not only fell in love with the city but also found my own connections at the various TV shows my mom and I attended - namely The Colbert Report. I've been in contact with this guy who works there, and is very willing to help me get an internship there (it's a process that goes through MTV Networks, with an interview - which is not guaranteed). I'd love to do that this summer. Work at the Colbert Report? Dream come true! "Yes, Mr. Colbert. I'll get your coffee." But on the other hand, I have a chance to go to L.A. and get right into something as well. I know I can always go out there too - maybe find a temp position or something - my cousin is very willing to help... I just don't know. Even with the family in LA (I actually have 2 cousins in LA and then Matt & Rebecca up in Oakland, you know), my mom likes the idea of New York more - namely the closer distance and big advantage of having reliable public transportation. In LA I'd have to have a car - no getting around it. I'm torn. I know I'm only just getting started - at the tender young age of 21 - but I want to make the right decision. I know that whatever I choose will be valuable - providing me with the opportunity I'd never imagine. Nothing's definite yet anywhere - I'm worried that it won't work out. The thought of moving to either place is scary, but not doubt exciting. I've always said I want to live in New York for atleast a year - while I'm young and not tied down. I hope something goes right. I want to work in this industry - I'm good at it (atleast in the little professional experience I have plus the collegiate setting) and have an unexplainable passion for it. My professors seem to see potential in me, and I just hope they're right. I hope that doesn't sound conceited - I obviously don't mean it to be.