over analyze dont love me unless i say its okay. learn to control your feelings and emotions.
i dont know why i have to be such a stupid fucking whore.
WHAT THE FUCK IS MY PROBLEM!!!
i know hed never hurt me and hes such a fucking doll. <333
but im still a dumb whore.
im so sorry.
im so sorry to ashley.
i really dont want you to be mad at me b/c im too pissed at myself.
FUCK.
and to the entry i just deleted if you didnt read it.-dont assume how i feel. ask me i wont tell you most likely but ill tell you how i dont feel ill tell you if your assumptions are wrong.
so well see what i do with my stupid self. ill think about school work and better the person ive let myself become.
im going to watch my actions with a closer eye. i am going pay more attention to how i feel and if i feel strong or not. there arent to many thigns i feel strongly about and i think my feeligns get blow out of propotion making me less aware.. of well myself really, when im the only one blowing them out of proportion.
edit-
so i cleared things up wiht rj b/c i couldnt get it off my mind. now im all manic. ahah. i kow what i want now. but i cant post it b/c im afirad you wont read it the way i want you to. thigns are good. fyi- he wasnt the person i was tlaking about. b/c it kind of sounds like it wiht this edit and all.
anyways. im good. need to go to sleep b/f i ruin my smile.
<333
i want a guy friend who will ask me advice for a girl! i men honestly i really want this. its sad. but its somethign i need. ill appriciate tings a lot more. im exicted.haha for when a guy asks me for adive on another girl.
xx
roar.