if only i could let myself cry.
this isnt too anyone in specific so dont flatter yourself.
i hate you but i hate myself for not really hating you just wanting too.
this is fuckign shitty.
i can tell you right now if we got to choose how we felt or really just me b/c im selfish i would be a lot happier.
fuck ancient philosiphy ive always backed up.
fuck you for loving me.
this isnt too anyone is specific so dont flatter yourself.
if we could choose the people we love (in all cases) all we would ahve to do is asks someone to choose us and then there wouldnt be a promblem. or we could ask people to not choose us and there wouldnt be a problem.
it sucks when you want to feel a certain way. like a part of you does and the only thing left is to convince the rest of.. well yourself.
maybe im the only one who feels this, and i hope i am b/c if someone else does im more sorry then youll ever know.
yeah i know im a dumb emo kid but fuck it. i was okay wiht not feeling until everyone wanted me too so now i do but everything is too intense. the people who want me to feel couldnt even take this shit. i always know when i should or shouldnt listen and i always do just the opposite.
fuck me for only caring how if feel right now but im really over the fact im selfish, but to be honest all you are too so dont hold me any lower then anyone else.
like i sat here and didnt really say what iw anted b/c i didnt want to make thigns about me and when i did i felt like shit only to realize people let me down.
when i dont expect things others get mad and whne i do i feel embarassed even tho noone knows.
i re-read this and it doesnt sound the way i eman it it sounds more like.. like some thing i guess it is partly about but not even close
WeAreAllGuilty77: it hurts, and im sorry you have to go throgh it
WeFashionedHips: thankyou so much albert
WeAreAllGuilty77: you dont deserve it
WeAreAllGuilty77: noone does
WeAreAllGuilty77: but especially good people....
i hate you but i hate myself for not really hating you just wanting too.
this is fuckign shitty.
i can tell you right now if we got to choose how we felt or really just me b/c im selfish i would be a lot happier.
fuck ancient philosiphy ive always backed up.
fuck you for loving me.
this isnt too anyone is specific so dont flatter yourself.
if we could choose the people we love (in all cases) all we would ahve to do is asks someone to choose us and then there wouldnt be a promblem. or we could ask people to not choose us and there wouldnt be a problem.
it sucks when you want to feel a certain way. like a part of you does and the only thing left is to convince the rest of.. well yourself.
maybe im the only one who feels this, and i hope i am b/c if someone else does im more sorry then youll ever know.
yeah i know im a dumb emo kid but fuck it. i was okay wiht not feeling until everyone wanted me too so now i do but everything is too intense. the people who want me to feel couldnt even take this shit. i always know when i should or shouldnt listen and i always do just the opposite.
fuck me for only caring how if feel right now but im really over the fact im selfish, but to be honest all you are too so dont hold me any lower then anyone else.
like i sat here and didnt really say what iw anted b/c i didnt want to make thigns about me and when i did i felt like shit only to realize people let me down.
when i dont expect things others get mad and whne i do i feel embarassed even tho noone knows.
i re-read this and it doesnt sound the way i eman it it sounds more like.. like some thing i guess it is partly about but not even close
WeAreAllGuilty77: it hurts, and im sorry you have to go throgh it
WeFashionedHips: thankyou so much albert
WeAreAllGuilty77: you dont deserve it
WeAreAllGuilty77: noone does
WeAreAllGuilty77: but especially good people....