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Paul is hard headed as fuck. He's such a hard person to read. I'm pretty sure we don't feel the same way about each other, but then again I really don't know. I've bugged him before about how he feels about me...and it matched then..but it could be all talk...you know..tell you what you want to hear sorta thing. We are moving into an apartment of our own in 11 days. It scares me a little bit. It's not like we've never lived together before. I know I can tolerate him. He makes me livid as fuck somedays. I just worry we'll get into it and then I'll have nowhere to live...or we'll get into and break up, but I'll still be living there and he'll have all these whores over. That shit fucking hurts. He needs to get off all of his bullshit and just marry me already. I want to get married. I can't speak for him, but I don't want anybody else. I want to be with him. I don't know too many people that would put up with as much bullshit as I have...all the fucking kids he has coming out of the woodwork...all the fucking whores that blow his phone up...all of it. I want Gracie to have a stable life. If things aren't going to work out between him and I or it's going to go nowhere then I'd rather it happen now then later so I can move on. But seriously, he needs to fucking marry me!