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Michael ruined parts of my mothers day by sending this text message: "Happy mothers day, BITCH. Sorry i sent this message, i'll never do it again. Bye."
That's a real nice memory I now have of my first mothers day. Thanks asshole. I'll def savor that one.
I'm supposed to go pay a $100 deposit today to hold Gracie's spot at that daycare. I can't. There is no way I can afford to pay $100 for a deposit right now and still be able to pay my cable bill, electric bill, car payment, and rent. I'm calling tomorrow to have my internet cancelled as well as my home phone. I can't afford all this shit. I'm drowning in debt. My mom has taken half a day off from work to watch Gracie for me. She did it yesterday and is doing it tomorrow as well. I'm praying to God she loans me $100 to hold that spot...and I'm hoping even more that she goes and does it for me since tomorrow might be too late. I'm hoping that Paul's August court date goes well so I can have my $2,000 back! As of June 2nd it will have been a year that I haven't had that money. I regret doing it so much. I feel bad saying that because in a way it's like I'm saying I regret my daughter since she was conceived a couple days after he got released...but I don't mean it like that. I just never should have done it. That's a lot of money to pretty much just be throwing away..now look at me. I'm raising a daughter by myself, completely broke. It would be such a huge relief to know I would def get that money back..and as soon as Sept. since it takes 1 month from the court date to get the check. I might call and ask them how many more times this thing can get extended. I'm a true idiot thinking I could start school now. I don't even know how much financial aid I will be given..if it doesn't cover summer I'm responsible for that. Everything is so stressful. My credit cards are almost maxed because I've had to pay bills with that. We're having a yard sale this Saturday and Sunday. I'm real tempted to sell my coffee table and two end tables, as well as trying to sell my computer. ISU has this new rule that starting this fall a laptop is required......I have to get a scholorship for that...I will have no reason for this computer. It's probably better anyway about the laptop. I could just take Gracie with me and go to Starbucks and use their internet or something instead of paying for my own. Life is one huge stress!
That's a real nice memory I now have of my first mothers day. Thanks asshole. I'll def savor that one.
I'm supposed to go pay a $100 deposit today to hold Gracie's spot at that daycare. I can't. There is no way I can afford to pay $100 for a deposit right now and still be able to pay my cable bill, electric bill, car payment, and rent. I'm calling tomorrow to have my internet cancelled as well as my home phone. I can't afford all this shit. I'm drowning in debt. My mom has taken half a day off from work to watch Gracie for me. She did it yesterday and is doing it tomorrow as well. I'm praying to God she loans me $100 to hold that spot...and I'm hoping even more that she goes and does it for me since tomorrow might be too late. I'm hoping that Paul's August court date goes well so I can have my $2,000 back! As of June 2nd it will have been a year that I haven't had that money. I regret doing it so much. I feel bad saying that because in a way it's like I'm saying I regret my daughter since she was conceived a couple days after he got released...but I don't mean it like that. I just never should have done it. That's a lot of money to pretty much just be throwing away..now look at me. I'm raising a daughter by myself, completely broke. It would be such a huge relief to know I would def get that money back..and as soon as Sept. since it takes 1 month from the court date to get the check. I might call and ask them how many more times this thing can get extended. I'm a true idiot thinking I could start school now. I don't even know how much financial aid I will be given..if it doesn't cover summer I'm responsible for that. Everything is so stressful. My credit cards are almost maxed because I've had to pay bills with that. We're having a yard sale this Saturday and Sunday. I'm real tempted to sell my coffee table and two end tables, as well as trying to sell my computer. ISU has this new rule that starting this fall a laptop is required......I have to get a scholorship for that...I will have no reason for this computer. It's probably better anyway about the laptop. I could just take Gracie with me and go to Starbucks and use their internet or something instead of paying for my own. Life is one huge stress!