evolving like a pokemon
in my last entry i mentioned a "bald with a beard" nerdy guy. we are now dating seriously because he amazes me and i amaze him. it's insanely wonderful and probably one of the most thrilling beginnings of a relationship i've ever experienced. he is so kind, he is so lovely. he is quieter with a velvety soft deep voice, big brown eyes wet with consideration; when i lean in to kiss him, his eyes glaze over as he stares at my lips.
everything so far has been terribly romantic. i'm not even worried about what will be, i'm hardly even stressing about over-stressing things or doing anything right. the reason this feels different- so very different than the others i've been with- is that i am utterly myself, completely comfortable, and entirely in the moment. usually i am lost in what could be, should have been, would have been best. it blows my mind to be content in the moment. it is rare and i am cultivating this feeling of infatuation and excitement for what it is, and not what it might be disguised as. i don't care. it's incredible.
the things he notices, his perspective of me- his eyes go so much deeper than what i'm used to. it's really something to really, honestly, feel liked- especially when you openly show who you really are. the genuine way he words his experience of me, who i am, and who he is around me, wraps my heart up like ricepaper around a present. i am happy.
everything so far has been terribly romantic. i'm not even worried about what will be, i'm hardly even stressing about over-stressing things or doing anything right. the reason this feels different- so very different than the others i've been with- is that i am utterly myself, completely comfortable, and entirely in the moment. usually i am lost in what could be, should have been, would have been best. it blows my mind to be content in the moment. it is rare and i am cultivating this feeling of infatuation and excitement for what it is, and not what it might be disguised as. i don't care. it's incredible.
the things he notices, his perspective of me- his eyes go so much deeper than what i'm used to. it's really something to really, honestly, feel liked- especially when you openly show who you really are. the genuine way he words his experience of me, who i am, and who he is around me, wraps my heart up like ricepaper around a present. i am happy.