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i don't even know to say anymore i feel so lost and me and melissa were talking and she knows what it is like how i feel about alex like you like them so much but you just don't wanna show it cause you don't want them to get scared and run away but i've seem to scared alex away and there's nothing i can do about it and you just kinda give up but then you find yourself thinking about that person non stop and it sucks cause you don't wanna ..........last night was fun hung out with the girls and then it turn shitty and i don;t care who reads this i love you know who you guys are. and i'm sorry michelle that shit happened last night i really wish it happened but rhiannon just got out of control.......well i just really wanna go in my room and never come out sometime and i wanna know why i can;t be with alex and i wish he could give me a answer i would ask him but he never tells me anything when i ask him so it wouldn;t help me and i already know that he doesn't think i'm pretty but whatever i wish he could walk in my shoes just for 10 mins just so he knew what i think about him and how much he really means to me dude i would of done anything for him maybe he's just not ready he's still a kid and he needs to grow up....i just want a chance.