fuck everything............................

[cherryburgundy]

it sucks so bad right now i'm so happy that i'm leaving to Ca right now and i'm talking to tim and he just told me that alex is going out back with teela and i'm trying not to care and he knows that i do and then he goes on about how can you like him and i said cause i do then he starts saying well he can like melissa cause he knows her he knows melissa as well as i know alex .........whatever i can't even say anything right now all i really want to do is cry and i do not know why i let tim get to me but i do and i hate it and he's never agreed with me liking alex he always thought i was stupid for liking him cause he thinks i know nothing about him whatever i know enough to like him........guys sucks so bad all i want is a boyfriend that i really could spend the rest of my life with someone who knows what they want in life not some stupid kid bullshit that alex plays getting back with someone and then breaking up the next day and he needs to fuckin have some balls to just tell me that he doesn't liek me and he;s back with teela but it won't he never says anything i hope alex and teela have a good life fuck it ........i don't even care anymore it's not worth crying over i never meant anything to him never had a chance...i'm going before i start to cry in front of anyone ((malia))
I love you malia>>Melissa have fun..i'll think of you.and Brianna love you....rhiannon i love you.Mike i'll miss you<3.

i hAveaxinmynamE: i hella wanna hang out wit melissa cuz i got a ride down there now
IcHeIInUrEyes: from who?
i hAveaxinmynamE: one of my sisters cood take me
i hAveaxinmynamE: cuz there here
i hAveaxinmynamE: so yeh
IcHeIInUrEyes: cool.
IcHeIInUrEyes: call her tomorrow i don't think she's doing anything i'll tell her top call you when i see her like in a couple of hours
IcHeIInUrEyes: we have to stop and say goodbye to her
i hAveaxinmynamE: she aint gunan call
i hAveaxinmynamE: she nevr duz
IcHeIInUrEyes: i'll make her
IcHeIInUrEyes: what's your number
IcHeIInUrEyes: i'l make her call you
i hAveaxinmynamE: she has it but she nevr effi nduz
i hAveaxinmynamE: hell of gits annoyin
IcHeIInUrEyes: okay
i hAveaxinmynamE: what tyem u goi noiver there?
IcHeIInUrEyes: um like 7:00
IcHeIInUrEyes: maybe earlier
i hAveaxinmynamE: ohh
i hAveaxinmynamE: make sure u tell her
IcHeIInUrEyes: i will
i hAveaxinmynamE: k
i hAveaxinmynamE: do u know if she actually lieks me at all?
i hAveaxinmynamE: hella dotn seem liek it
IcHeIInUrEyes: mmmmm........
IcHeIInUrEyes: i know she has said that she does like you
i hAveaxinmynamE: woot
IcHeIInUrEyes: ya
i hAveaxinmynamE: brb
IcHeIInUrEyes: i talk to alex about everything but it just doesn't seem like it's ever gonna happen so i''m forgetting about all of it

Auto response from i hAveaxinmynamE: rape her shes half way dead anyway.

IcHeIInUrEyes: alright/
i hAveaxinmynamE: hes now back with teela
IcHeIInUrEyes: what
i hAveaxinmynamE: what i siad
IcHeIInUrEyes: are you lying?
i hAveaxinmynamE: no
i hAveaxinmynamE: its been for liek 3 days or 4
IcHeIInUrEyes: whatever
i hAveaxinmynamE: yeh
IcHeIInUrEyes: i don't even care anymore
i hAveaxinmynamE: yes u do
IcHeIInUrEyes: no i don't
i hAveaxinmynamE: yeh i know u do
IcHeIInUrEyes: i just don't understand him
IcHeIInUrEyes: at all
i hAveaxinmynamE: no 1 does
IcHeIInUrEyes: i don't even know what to say about him and teela
IcHeIInUrEyes: i just don't understand anything anymore'
i hAveaxinmynamE: yehh
IcHeIInUrEyes: at least you know melissa likes you right
i hAveaxinmynamE: i know...but i reely dont think she does
IcHeIInUrEyes: well you have a better chance than anyone
IcHeIInUrEyes: i never had a chance with alex i just try to think i did
IcHeIInUrEyes: cause i liked him so much
i hAveaxinmynamE: how?
IcHeIInUrEyes: ho0w what?
i hAveaxinmynamE: hw cood u like him
IcHeIInUrEyes: i don't know
IcHeIInUrEyes: why do you liek melissa?
IcHeIInUrEyes: you just do
i hAveaxinmynamE: no
i hAveaxinmynamE: i at least know wh oshe is
IcHeIInUrEyes: whatever tim
IcHeIInUrEyes: if you really think you know her
i hAveaxinmynamE: yeh u know im righjt
i hAveaxinmynamE: i know enuf about to say that i hell of liek her
i hAveaxinmynamE: all u know about alex that hes a playin heart breakin person
IcHeIInUrEyes: yea
IcHeIInUrEyes: doesn't mean you nkow her
IcHeIInUrEyes: you know her as much as i know alex
i hAveaxinmynamE: if i dint know her i wouldnt liek ehr
i hAveaxinmynamE: no
IcHeIInUrEyes: inevermind
i hAveaxinmynamE: yehh hell of