take a look at me now
alright time to vent. i am in such a horrible mood. this weekend has been the biggest waste, ive done nothing, like literally nothing. i had so much homework and projects to do...ya didnt even touch them. its so frustrating, i want to do well i jsut dont want to waste my time doing stupid pointless shit like friggin imperfect and preterite, ok im sory but i have no fucking idea how the fit into a composition about a fucking dentist, and quite frankly i dont give a damn either. it doesnt help that lisle is being a total prick. he has the nerve to have one of his little friends call me lastnight and say all this stupid shit, so i just ignored him and they kept calling, seriously are you 12? hes so damn stubborn and selfish, its so rediculous i just want to beat him until he cries. anyways in case u cant tell im really pissed off i just fucking hate everything and i just want to not have to worry about anything..my moments of ultimate chillness have come to a screeching hault..i guess the main thing pissing me off is lisle, cmon buddy friends dont do that to friends, of course then again that could have been another lie, hes so full of bullshit it makes me wonder if he ever ment anything he ever said, i knew it was to good to be true, of course i should have suspected that from the start no relationship i have with a guy ever works out, whether its serious dating or jsut friends it seems i always get screwd in the end, and dont think im all "woa is me bla bla" its just that im sick of it, and have been for a while i just wish something would last and actually mean something instead of all this pointless in the middle one way or another cant make up my mind..i gets so old, i jsut feel so alone in this, like i dont really fit in, i mean ya i have awesome friends, but i have this looming feeling that theres more out there, like theres so much more i can do and im trapped. watever i make no sense im just generally pissed..at everything,
i guess i just have to learn to roll with the punches, and let things slide. because in the end none of this is gonna matter, but then again isnt this what gets us to the end? so do we really want to look back and say none of this mattered? cause once your at the end (whatever the fuck that may be) thats it, so i guess you have to make this count, at least for something
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i guess i just have to learn to roll with the punches, and let things slide. because in the end none of this is gonna matter, but then again isnt this what gets us to the end? so do we really want to look back and say none of this mattered? cause once your at the end (whatever the fuck that may be) thats it, so i guess you have to make this count, at least for something
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