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wow im in a shit load of pain right now...
neways...it's been like forever...i know my loyal fans probably thought i died...i didnt really think anyone read this...i still dont actually...so if you do read this leave me a comment and tell me so i continue to write in it
I leave for college in almost 7 days...august 25th
Today my mom asked me what i wanted to do for my last weekend home..and i just started crying...i dont know if im ready for this...i mean i cant believe im leaving for college...nothing is ever going to be the same...home wont ever be home again...my little sister is moving in my room when i leave..so i wont even have that to come home to...i dont know how im going to deal with this
Last month i went off of my depression meds...my choice..but i was talking to the doctor and she gave me a starter pack and told me to take it to college..she like knows im going to die.
So i got all my school supplies today and me being a dumbass ordered staples instead of a stapler...so now i still need one of those...and some weird cables for the TV and my computer...which i havent gotten yet...weird...but my mom promises she's gonna get me one so i guess i dont have to worry..
Amy leaves tomorrow....Hillary left tuesday...it's real. we're really all leaving im not packing bc then i know that its true and i have to leave i figure if im not packed i cant leave. so ill wait until the absolute last minute for that
my biggest issue is my mom i know some people think shes a bitch but i honestly am going to be so lost without her and i know she will be too..even though she claims she cant wait until im gone..im getting all sad and teary thinking about it..she tells me everything..especially now that her and jimmy are like basically over. she has no one else to vent to...except eric...he's cool i guess but i feel like he's going to replace me...and thats not cool.
Im not all sad about leaving though
Jean is super cool and i cant wait to get all moved in..plus i mean it's college...its supposed to be like amazing..i hope it is...i mean i would be soo dissappointed if it was like high school...because i hated high school with a passion. well i dont know really i have mixed feelings about this whole thing..i mean everyone says theyre going to come visit...but do they really? i mean its sad to think that the people ive spent my life with wont be there anymore...
oh well...im done being sad for the time being..
leave me love...cheer me up
neways...it's been like forever...i know my loyal fans probably thought i died...i didnt really think anyone read this...i still dont actually...so if you do read this leave me a comment and tell me so i continue to write in it
I leave for college in almost 7 days...august 25th
Today my mom asked me what i wanted to do for my last weekend home..and i just started crying...i dont know if im ready for this...i mean i cant believe im leaving for college...nothing is ever going to be the same...home wont ever be home again...my little sister is moving in my room when i leave..so i wont even have that to come home to...i dont know how im going to deal with this
Last month i went off of my depression meds...my choice..but i was talking to the doctor and she gave me a starter pack and told me to take it to college..she like knows im going to die.
So i got all my school supplies today and me being a dumbass ordered staples instead of a stapler...so now i still need one of those...and some weird cables for the TV and my computer...which i havent gotten yet...weird...but my mom promises she's gonna get me one so i guess i dont have to worry..
Amy leaves tomorrow....Hillary left tuesday...it's real. we're really all leaving im not packing bc then i know that its true and i have to leave i figure if im not packed i cant leave. so ill wait until the absolute last minute for that
my biggest issue is my mom i know some people think shes a bitch but i honestly am going to be so lost without her and i know she will be too..even though she claims she cant wait until im gone..im getting all sad and teary thinking about it..she tells me everything..especially now that her and jimmy are like basically over. she has no one else to vent to...except eric...he's cool i guess but i feel like he's going to replace me...and thats not cool.
Im not all sad about leaving though
Jean is super cool and i cant wait to get all moved in..plus i mean it's college...its supposed to be like amazing..i hope it is...i mean i would be soo dissappointed if it was like high school...because i hated high school with a passion. well i dont know really i have mixed feelings about this whole thing..i mean everyone says theyre going to come visit...but do they really? i mean its sad to think that the people ive spent my life with wont be there anymore...
oh well...im done being sad for the time being..
leave me love...cheer me up