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sooo ummm. like i havent written in this in months? i dont even know when the last time was. a lot has gone on. graduated highschool. woot woot. first semester of college finished. woot woot. as you can see a lot of woot woots. lol. tarpleys coming back tomorrow. woot woot. hahaha. dont ask. and no im not chemically altered. i hope not at least? we exchanged gifts tonight. i got some awesome stuff. a book on serial killers which looks purdy awesome and some fairie stuff was by far the best. i've been doing good. in both the obvious, and kinda sort of in the non-obvious. mixed feelings and stuff. kinda like a fork in the road. and even though i want to go down one road. the other one just is so much easier and more welcoming. but i know that while its more welcoming, it just wants one thing. and then it'll throw me aside like trash. and the other way just...i dont know. doesnt seem interested. and i really dont expect anyone to know what im trying to say. partly because i dont want anyone too and also because im a confusing person in the first place. but off that topic, christmas is coming up. and then new years. i wanna do something awesome for new years. just to give me a glimmer of hope 06 will rock. because 05 so did not. so i still need to figure things out...kind of like a lot of things.