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i havent really been writing anything lately, i'm sorry, for some reason i have been very scared to say how i feel about alot, i dont really know why. i am just at a time where i have no idea whats going on, and in a few weeks, or days if something changes, i dont want to be reminded of it, i went through that before and i deleted my whole journal.
it seems as if everyone wants to know about me and jay, well.. we still arent together, and he goes through mood swings and makes things difficult, i am no angel either i guess, but atleast i realize if we work together, better things will happen, all i can say is, i love him to death... and i am trying as hard as i possibly can, and i dont wanna lose him, i feel safe saying that.
its funny how no guy compares to him, seriously. i could have other guys, but i dont even care.. i just want him, i got so comfortable with him, i know it took a while, i just dont wanna give up everything we worked for, i mean i overcame so much with him, i just love him.
i know this isnt an "ericka+jay" journal so i will try not to talk about him so so much.
i had a pretty bad night, people can be idiots, even friends. i dont want to go into detail, yet.. but i think from now on i will just stay at home, ya know?
i think blake took some hyper pills, he is like.. wired, seriously.
it seems as if everyone wants to know about me and jay, well.. we still arent together, and he goes through mood swings and makes things difficult, i am no angel either i guess, but atleast i realize if we work together, better things will happen, all i can say is, i love him to death... and i am trying as hard as i possibly can, and i dont wanna lose him, i feel safe saying that.
its funny how no guy compares to him, seriously. i could have other guys, but i dont even care.. i just want him, i got so comfortable with him, i know it took a while, i just dont wanna give up everything we worked for, i mean i overcame so much with him, i just love him.
i know this isnt an "ericka+jay" journal so i will try not to talk about him so so much.
i had a pretty bad night, people can be idiots, even friends. i dont want to go into detail, yet.. but i think from now on i will just stay at home, ya know?
i think blake took some hyper pills, he is like.. wired, seriously.