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i get tired of always saying how i feel so bad. now i dont exactly feel bad, i just feel sad. and that sucks.. i hate relationships, of any kind. i miss writing in this journal, i was thinking today about how i used to write alot.. and it helped me, so much. i remember when jay and i used to both write in them, that was always awesome, i miss that so much. i wish i could be how i used to be when i first met him.
on a happier note, we went to take christmas pictures today, it was alright i guess. so many people were there and the boys like being jerks, i mean my grandpa paid 400 dollars for pictures and then over 100 for us to eat and like none of them appreciated it, i just wanted to slap them, seriously. they pissed me off so fucking bad with that shit, i hate it when people dont appreciate things.
my mom and i had severe problems, i hate it. i dont know whats going to happen, i really dont. in a way i dont ever want to talk to her again.
in the last few months, i feel as if i have drifted away from my friends a great amount, and that bothers me.. i gave up so much for jay and now im like.. left with nothing, it sucks.
on a happier note, we went to take christmas pictures today, it was alright i guess. so many people were there and the boys like being jerks, i mean my grandpa paid 400 dollars for pictures and then over 100 for us to eat and like none of them appreciated it, i just wanted to slap them, seriously. they pissed me off so fucking bad with that shit, i hate it when people dont appreciate things.
my mom and i had severe problems, i hate it. i dont know whats going to happen, i really dont. in a way i dont ever want to talk to her again.
in the last few months, i feel as if i have drifted away from my friends a great amount, and that bothers me.. i gave up so much for jay and now im like.. left with nothing, it sucks.