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[cherry_wine]

I feel like I'm living a full on nightmare.. I can't believe Andy's gone.. He was only 18. He was always there for me whenever I needed a friend.. but he wasnt just a friend, he was my BEST friend.. someone that I knew would be there no matter what was going on between us, no matter who he was around or who he was with. He was a great person, and

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[indakiss]

=( I got a tear in my eye seriously, I guess it hit me because he was only 5 days older than me =( When it's something like that it hits me hard just thinkin wow, he's right there with me it could be anyone.

[cherry_wine]

yeah i had to keep myself from crying while i was writing... :(
and i never expected it either.. i still dont think i realize it cause ive found myself actually picking up the phone to call him..then remembering that he wont answer..hes gone.. and it makes me so sad.. i dont know what to do.
it could happen to anyone.. this has seriously changed my impact on life.. i sometimes feel like it would've been easier if i never would've met him, but theres a reason behind everything, and i know one day.. i'll get to see him again. i still talk to him, in my prayers, telling him how much i wish he were here, and how i wish i could see him at least one more time.. i just never got to say goodbye.

[indakiss]

Yeah, when my dad passed away i never really got to say goodbye, but then again it's not goodbye it's i'll see you later. For a while after that I would catch myself about to yell "dad come watch this", but of course he was not there to respond, it's been 5 yrs and till this day I still think about him everyday and forget he is gone.

[cherry_wine]

i was just used to him picking me up off the floor when i was sad or something was bothering me.. and now hes not here to do that. i never realized how much i would miss him if something like this would happen.. i never really thought about. and your right... i dont wanna say goodbye so im not going to.. i know i'll see him again one of these days.. sooner or later, i just dont know. i just wish so badly i could see him one more time..

[indakiss]

yeah, i know how you feel. I'd give anything just to see a glimpse of my dad once more, just to touch him once more