Attempted suicide?
Last night I had a dream that I or someone or something cut my arms with a knife. Almost liked I tried to slit my wrists only further down my arm. I went to the hospital and they tried to fix me. They fixed my left arm but my right arm was still bleeding. They couldn't stop the blood from coming out of the hole. I was really scared and I asked the nurse to get Kory. (Apparently he took me to the hospital.) I asked him to hold my hand and I told him that when I was little I used to cut my fingers on knives. Not on purpose, I think I just didn't know any better. It was stupid but I was a stupid kid back then. I woke up and it was still really early so I just laid there until I fell back asleep. I didn't like that dream. I didn't get it. I can't figure out if I tried to kill myself or if it was an accident. I don't see why I would try to kill myself or what kind of accident it would have been. Oh well it was just a dream.
Spring break is almost over. It went by so fast. All I did was work and study. At least I'm trying to study. I hate this phonetic alphabet that I have tp memorize. Nobody writes with it. It's so stupid, I feel like I'm learning how to speak English. I finally got that smart girl to help me. She was really nice and explained everything. I actually get it now! I felt bad for making her come tutor me during Spring break though. I think I'm going to take a cue from her though in the way she helped me. When I tried to help that girl from my science class I got the feeling she didn't want help she just wanted to cheat. I should have explained everything to her and made it clear that she couldn't cheat off of me. She still didn't get to but not because I told her not to. I think she's just going to drop the class anyway. We were supposed to meet at Hassayampa on Monday for a make up lab but it was closed and I called her to tell her and try and set up another time but she didn't answer and hasn't called me back. I know it's Spring Break and all but the labs aren't hard to do, and if she wants to keep her scholarship like she told me then she would take this seriously. I even checked out binoculars for her and everything. I'm just giving them back to the teacher and telling him she didn't show up or call me and I'm not doing the work for her. I feel so used. She probably wont even show up to the lab on Monday. It wont be my problem. I guess I better get back to writing phonetically. I swear this stupid alphabet is going to screw me up.
Spring break is almost over. It went by so fast. All I did was work and study. At least I'm trying to study. I hate this phonetic alphabet that I have tp memorize. Nobody writes with it. It's so stupid, I feel like I'm learning how to speak English. I finally got that smart girl to help me. She was really nice and explained everything. I actually get it now! I felt bad for making her come tutor me during Spring break though. I think I'm going to take a cue from her though in the way she helped me. When I tried to help that girl from my science class I got the feeling she didn't want help she just wanted to cheat. I should have explained everything to her and made it clear that she couldn't cheat off of me. She still didn't get to but not because I told her not to. I think she's just going to drop the class anyway. We were supposed to meet at Hassayampa on Monday for a make up lab but it was closed and I called her to tell her and try and set up another time but she didn't answer and hasn't called me back. I know it's Spring Break and all but the labs aren't hard to do, and if she wants to keep her scholarship like she told me then she would take this seriously. I even checked out binoculars for her and everything. I'm just giving them back to the teacher and telling him she didn't show up or call me and I'm not doing the work for her. I feel so used. She probably wont even show up to the lab on Monday. It wont be my problem. I guess I better get back to writing phonetically. I swear this stupid alphabet is going to screw me up.