kwidamadinky doooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......ketchup
woo! nothing real exciting has happened....but i did almost forget what my name was for this a minute ago...that would have sucked...well anyways....i guess me and shawn are pretty much friends with benifits, thats always fun i guess. im listening to rob zombie "hellbilly delux" the third song on the cd. love it....my favorite by them. totally kick ass...ive gotten my phone privaleges back finally, lol. ive been calling my good guy buddies, like joe cavanaugh. we have like this desire to rape eachother. lol, and then my new friend john. hes half black and half irish. ive wanted to date him for the longest time, but then last night we talked about shit like that and like he said id never get anywhere with him because he didnt want to ruin our friendship. because we have had actually a really cool one, and we actually had a sophisticated conversation last night for about two hours, and to get that out of someone who lives in taunton is rare. and it felt good to have a normal conversation last night about tyhings you actually like top talk about with some one you would actually like to talk to. and it was wicked cool. because i realized as well last night that who ever would want to destroy something like that would be insane. and so me and him plan on hanging out together some time this week or something. and i also have every intention of doing so. and as i think about it more, maybe some day we wil grow and be closer than friends but im not going to think about that to much, because who knows whats gonna happen you know? if we are never to be any thing other than friends, so be it! ill still always have someone sophisticated to talk to thats likes things other than his damn self or his music and his life that he has no more. like shawn. tring to get a good friendly conversation out of him is like pulling teeth! ergh! because he is what my grandmother calls a philosopher, he likes to pick everything apart. and than he has to argue about it until you giva in and say hes right. he will deny doing so, but, everyone knows he does it, and then hes so damn conceded its not even funny, and hes lazy. oh and hes so against skipping school but he cons his father into letting him stay home by saying that hes sick and he doesnt feel good. hes fine for one, if you can run around like an idiot in school, then your fine. hes a little con artist. and then he complains about there being nothing to do in taunton, well obviously thats how its gonna be if all your going to do after school is go home and sleep. try to make some new damn friends and hang out or do something on your own, you dont always need someone to hold your hand to go to a skate park or something. walk around say hi to some random people that look like maybe you would want to talk to. damn. he just bothers me sometimes. but whatever. hes just a guy that i used to be in love with now. hes become something atrocious. yes, i have a lot on my mind. but i have no one really to talk to. because im pretty much stuck in the house for the time being. because everyone is busy and my grandmother needs my help, so, i know i should eat my words, but at least im right.