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i'm in the worst mood. probably hormones, but a lot of crappy stuff is happening which suggests it's probably more than that. it doesn't help when your manic depressive/bulimic/generally off-the-wall friend tries to be patronising about it. "my problems are worse than yours" bullshit, which IS bullshit because i don't HAVE problems, i just have little things niggling at me which cause annoyance. what really fucks it up is that i'm too much of a coward to stand up for myself, to adorn this "i'm standing up for what i believe in" attitude that people seem to associate with me.
that's it. i'm through with this & i'm through with him. let someone else do the chasing; i'm tired of running around after people.
and she can fuck off, too. she thinks she can come and go. maybe for a short time, but not as long as she has been, and certainly not from now on. screw her. screw them. screw it all, i'm going it alone.
no one gets hurt that way.