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I feel so blah tonight. But... it will pass. It's not a huge deal.
So.. I'm doing a medical study sort of thing for anxiety. I'm only doing it because I have anxiety. I have to go down to the place Wednesday for 45 minutes to talk more about it... then I'll know more. Then I'll get anxiety medicine for a few weeks and get paid to test my anxiety. I know it sounds retarded to you, but I like the idea. I also get 3 months of after-care after-the-fact. I like hyphens.
I'm watching shows on tv that my mom watches. I'm also doing things that my mom used to do. It's half-ass-getting-to-me. Sort of. I watched that show about murder cases and having 48 hours to solve them and intervention just now. I actually love intervention though. Mom does stuff like that. I noticed in life that if my mom ever did something, I absolutely will not do it. Like like plants. I even go against the foods she used to buy at the grocery store. I'm not entirely sure what that's all about. Probably rebelling against her in my own creepy little way, I'm sure.
My cat is ridiculously clingy lately. More than normal. I have work tomorrow... blah.
This whole entry feels negative.
I'm having 2nd thoughts living with David. I hung out with him the past few days and something about it felt off. It makes me kinda hesitate about living with him. I wrote him on myspace about it. I'm so in my little hole today. I don't really want to talk to anyone.
Okay.. this is the end of my negative entry. Bed time little journal.
So.. I'm doing a medical study sort of thing for anxiety. I'm only doing it because I have anxiety. I have to go down to the place Wednesday for 45 minutes to talk more about it... then I'll know more. Then I'll get anxiety medicine for a few weeks and get paid to test my anxiety. I know it sounds retarded to you, but I like the idea. I also get 3 months of after-care after-the-fact. I like hyphens.
I'm watching shows on tv that my mom watches. I'm also doing things that my mom used to do. It's half-ass-getting-to-me. Sort of. I watched that show about murder cases and having 48 hours to solve them and intervention just now. I actually love intervention though. Mom does stuff like that. I noticed in life that if my mom ever did something, I absolutely will not do it. Like like plants. I even go against the foods she used to buy at the grocery store. I'm not entirely sure what that's all about. Probably rebelling against her in my own creepy little way, I'm sure.
My cat is ridiculously clingy lately. More than normal. I have work tomorrow... blah.
This whole entry feels negative.
I'm having 2nd thoughts living with David. I hung out with him the past few days and something about it felt off. It makes me kinda hesitate about living with him. I wrote him on myspace about it. I'm so in my little hole today. I don't really want to talk to anyone.
Okay.. this is the end of my negative entry. Bed time little journal.