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well a lot has been going on lately..
first off, lisa and i arent friends anymore which is really hitting me hard...at least we're not fighting though..when we run into each other we are able to have a civilized (small talk) conversation. it really upsets me to see her fuck up her life so badly though...it seems im the only one who cares if she goes to jail or not...
on a lighter note, ive been hanging out with steven a lot more and getting closer to him again. though the two of us, when together, can be extremely vain (ie. doing our makeup and hair and taking excessive amounts of pictures of ourselves) we still have a good relationship and we have a lot of fun together.
Last night i went to nicoles birthday with her and some other girls down to 3rd street in santa monica. we ate at hooters and went shopping which was fun, and then went back to her house afterwards and some more people came over and she had a kickback at her house and we chilled in her jacuzzi all night and had fun. i forgot what it was like to hang out with girls....yeah theres unneccessary amounts of gossip and girl talk...but its kind of a nice feeling. i didnt realize how long its been since ive had a girls' night. of course the night was only a girls' night until like 11:30, but it was fun, nonetheless.
last thing, mr. boy (he shall remain nameless) and i are seeing each other now i guess...i mean we've always had a thing for each other but these past few weeks...or this past month or so has just been different. i really dont want a relationship with him because i dont have time and im scared a committed relationship would ruin what we have, but i feel so loved and cared for when im with him. its such a release to hang out with him because we just laugh and talk and have a good, stress free time. im scared though, that we're getting too close and eventually it might get to the point where we cant just do what we're doing right now..because the emotional attatchment is getting too strong. ay yi yi..
well i gtg finish some homework
♥ always
first off, lisa and i arent friends anymore which is really hitting me hard...at least we're not fighting though..when we run into each other we are able to have a civilized (small talk) conversation. it really upsets me to see her fuck up her life so badly though...it seems im the only one who cares if she goes to jail or not...
on a lighter note, ive been hanging out with steven a lot more and getting closer to him again. though the two of us, when together, can be extremely vain (ie. doing our makeup and hair and taking excessive amounts of pictures of ourselves) we still have a good relationship and we have a lot of fun together.
Last night i went to nicoles birthday with her and some other girls down to 3rd street in santa monica. we ate at hooters and went shopping which was fun, and then went back to her house afterwards and some more people came over and she had a kickback at her house and we chilled in her jacuzzi all night and had fun. i forgot what it was like to hang out with girls....yeah theres unneccessary amounts of gossip and girl talk...but its kind of a nice feeling. i didnt realize how long its been since ive had a girls' night. of course the night was only a girls' night until like 11:30, but it was fun, nonetheless.
last thing, mr. boy (he shall remain nameless) and i are seeing each other now i guess...i mean we've always had a thing for each other but these past few weeks...or this past month or so has just been different. i really dont want a relationship with him because i dont have time and im scared a committed relationship would ruin what we have, but i feel so loved and cared for when im with him. its such a release to hang out with him because we just laugh and talk and have a good, stress free time. im scared though, that we're getting too close and eventually it might get to the point where we cant just do what we're doing right now..because the emotional attatchment is getting too strong. ay yi yi..
well i gtg finish some homework
♥ always