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I hate men. I really, really do. I've been talking with my friend Wes for nearly 5 years. We've only been friends and he was super supportive during my wild years. And we don't hang out as much as I'd like. So I have the house to myself this weekend and invited him over. Then he went there. I wasn't inviting him over to have sex but he sure as hell thought I was. So I made up some excuse and canceled on him. Which makes me sad because I really like him. But those days are over. THEN. I've been talking to James lately. Did I mention he asked some other girl out? Well, he did. Now all he does is complain about her and moan about how he should've picked me. Sigh. I've been avoiding him all week. He brings alot of drama. I just don't care for it and have cut drama filled people from my life. I only have like 3 close friends and they don't drive me crazy with nonsense. He does. Jaci keeps telling me I need to call him but I really don't want to. I don't want to hear should haves, could haves, why didn't I for two hours. Basically after being totally walked all over and treated like shit by three different men. I'm really not looking to sign up for that again. I just don't like being around anyone lately. I'm just sick of being hurt. I feel like I can't trust anyone. And I don't know exactly why I write at this journal because no one reads this one. I suppose that's why I write here.