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so i was just looking through files and i found a song brendan sent to me months ago and i never listened to it
i told mary and that reminded her...
she just told me mr.dart stopped by at her house yesterday
they got to write brendan his first letter yesterday
their family and all
god
i want to write him
ima bout to cry
knowing they got to contact him
i want to effing write him
i hope ms.carol calls me soon. i like to hear from her
YES I LIKE MY BEST FRIENDS MOM LIKE I LOVE MY OWN MOTHER
and i love his dad 20 billion times more than my own crappy father
ahhh i want to write him
i told mary, screw writing him
im getting my ass there
and she wasilke, send me a postcard
i really miss him
and i was like, dear, if only you knew how much i miss him
i mean yeah, them two were bff too, i mean hell when brendan and i discussed getting married, mary was to be getting married to us too. it works, brendan, mary, megan, its been that way forever.
but she is still doing so well, she didnt have as close of a relationship with him. i mean im not trying to sound superior or like i need pity bc we were closer, but after spending the week at the cabin with brendan, i became physically attached too.
i mean i would never continuesly hook up with someone i wasnt going out with, or kiss them or cuddle with them or sleep with them
unless they were as special to me as brendan is
i mean it didnt even seem weird that we would kiss all the time and we knew we were best friends, and thats it.
whatev. tomorrow im going to taylors and we are dressing up like pirates
and watching southpark
and possibly going to quiznos
GOOD!
mary (f ) asked him if he liked me
and he said, he wouldnt want to go out with me, bc if we broke up, our relationship would be over.
good thinkin tay
a few hours ago i made mary (g. ) a cd and me and my puppy walked it down to her house
and he enjoyed the walk so much i took him for a longer one, and phew we were both tired when i got back home, he enjoys running haha. so then i bathed him and he smells all fresh. then mary came down and brought me a cd she made. its all rap. bleh haha. some of the songs are cool though.
i wish mary knew how much i miss brendan
but i have never been able to be THAT open with her. like me and brendan, we have talked so many times how much we love her, because she is just awesome in every way. but for some reason, neither of us have told her everything , we tell each other everything but not her.
if she knew i was THIS emotional, she would be like,w ell why havnt you been oging out with me brian val sarah daniel and all of us everynight!
she wouldnt understand
but i think i might send her one of my journal entrys
just so maybe she will realize it
but then i think she would say that im thinking about him too much blah blah blah
if someone saved your life, they are worth thinking about
if you saved someones life, many a times they are obviously important enough to think about
i just saw jeff walking down the street
i flicked him off
he didnt see though
screw gangstas yo
so i was just looking through files and i found a song brendan sent to me months ago and i never listened to it
i told mary and that reminded her...
she just told me mr.dart stopped by at her house yesterday
they got to write brendan his first letter yesterday
their family and all
god
i want to write him
ima bout to cry
knowing they got to contact him
i want to effing write him
i hope ms.carol calls me soon. i like to hear from her
YES I LIKE MY BEST FRIENDS MOM LIKE I LOVE MY OWN MOTHER
and i love his dad 20 billion times more than my own crappy father
ahhh i want to write him
i told mary, screw writing him
im getting my ass there
and she wasilke, send me a postcard
i really miss him
and i was like, dear, if only you knew how much i miss him
i mean yeah, them two were bff too, i mean hell when brendan and i discussed getting married, mary was to be getting married to us too. it works, brendan, mary, megan, its been that way forever.
but she is still doing so well, she didnt have as close of a relationship with him. i mean im not trying to sound superior or like i need pity bc we were closer, but after spending the week at the cabin with brendan, i became physically attached too.
i mean i would never continuesly hook up with someone i wasnt going out with, or kiss them or cuddle with them or sleep with them
unless they were as special to me as brendan is
i mean it didnt even seem weird that we would kiss all the time and we knew we were best friends, and thats it.
whatev. tomorrow im going to taylors and we are dressing up like pirates
and watching southpark
and possibly going to quiznos
GOOD!
mary (f ) asked him if he liked me
and he said, he wouldnt want to go out with me, bc if we broke up, our relationship would be over.
good thinkin tay
a few hours ago i made mary (g. ) a cd and me and my puppy walked it down to her house
and he enjoyed the walk so much i took him for a longer one, and phew we were both tired when i got back home, he enjoys running haha. so then i bathed him and he smells all fresh. then mary came down and brought me a cd she made. its all rap. bleh haha. some of the songs are cool though.
i wish mary knew how much i miss brendan
but i have never been able to be THAT open with her. like me and brendan, we have talked so many times how much we love her, because she is just awesome in every way. but for some reason, neither of us have told her everything , we tell each other everything but not her.
if she knew i was THIS emotional, she would be like,w ell why havnt you been oging out with me brian val sarah daniel and all of us everynight!
she wouldnt understand
but i think i might send her one of my journal entrys
just so maybe she will realize it
but then i think she would say that im thinking about him too much blah blah blah
if someone saved your life, they are worth thinking about
if you saved someones life, many a times they are obviously important enough to think about
i just saw jeff walking down the street
i flicked him off
he didnt see though
screw gangstas yo