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So I started training at the bank this week, yay. It's good but I have to act adult and all mature, and I don't think I'm ready to grow up yet. At least not in that way. <3 And i miss my flip flops <3. But it is so much better than waitressing, I actually get respect. I never had the urge to actually slap somebody until i started waitressing, lol. The drive to work is long, but I'll get used to it and learn some patience along the way. I should be studying for a math quiz right now, but it think i'll be daring (lazy) and see what grade i can get without studying. I can't wait until all the election stuff dies down, it's exhausting and i hate arguing.
...Only three more months until Ashlyn Nicole Cammon comes into the world
I feel so divided. My life does not work without Blair and I miss him so much. Parts of me aren't even functioning while other parts are so excited about God and the things He is doing. It's a weird feeling. One moment I'm emotional and the next I am jumping up and down. Only one more week to go until me and the Lapwing family drive up to Chicago to see him graduate! I am just trying to hold on until then. Everything I do seems so meaningless and I don't feel I belong anywhere on the planet, except next to him. I just hope this will only make us stronger and we get what God is trying to teach us.
btw- Central Christian Church is my family and I love it and everyone in it, even the people that don't go anymore. Just don't talk about my family.