ten things you wish you could say to ten different people
Some identities have been concealed, for the sake of protecting our history! You can guess, you can speculate, but I guess you would never know if it's definitely you unless it's YOU reading it! :)
1. Although I don't show it as much as I feel it, I'm really very happy that you found someone you are finally not cynical about. Treasure him, teach him how to cherish you, and remember this all the time (something I never learnt) - just because someone doesn't love you the way you like, it doesn't mean he doesn't love you. I'm sorry that I was going through a very bitter and extremely cynical phase of my life, and if I did not give you as much support as I should have, I'm sorry :( Just remember I'll always be here for you, like you were for me ♥
2. This is for 2 people: I'm honestly very happy and amazed how we got SO much closer over our similar ordeals. That happened one after another (magic of destiny huh hurhur), and that no one else around us would have understood but each other. Thank you for always slapping me awake everytime I lapse into my 'moments', and for always being around for me to rant and whine to! (And vice-versa also okay - I ALSO ALWAYS NAG AT YOU 2!) S****** LOVE! ♥
3. Although I can't be there, I sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, wish you all the best in the rest of your life. Please don't make any more mistakes (even if you might think they aren't wrong per se, I'm telling you they are.) and treasure what you have. You might think she's dumb but I assure you, she isn't. And P.S., I think I've served all the due karma I deserve.
4. You're the gay BFF that every girl has (it's SO obvious who this is -.-), and I'm so glad you're mine ;) My gay BFF, not mine. I don't think I ever told you this before, but love changed you, both good and bad. But either way, I still like the way you are. Thank you for always being there to knock some sense into my thick skull and heart that knows no limits, and for being my #1 bitching partner. I think the way we fight and bicker is something others will find hard to emulate, so thank God for this chemistry that we share, and thank God for blessing me with such a friend in college :)
5. You are the one that got away; you are the one that let me go because you "thought I deserved better"; you are the one believed in me when no one else did; you are the one who would somehow always come back even after leaving my side and letting me down; you are the one that always got me thinking of the 'what ifs'. Believe me when I say I'm truly happy for you - you found something I didn't, and at the end you got the better end of our 'deal' (I think). Don't beat yourself up over what happened - it was never your fault and it was not something you (or anyone for that matter) could have prevented anyway. What was meant to happen would have; what was meant to end would too.
6. To my #1 risky asset; everytime I see you, the first thing that pops into my head: "WHY?" Up till now, I still want to know why, but I know you yourself don't even know why, and even if you do, you know that nothing you say would ever be enough for me. It's getting clearer and clearer to me why we didn't work out (and that's good), but that also made me see a side of you that I don't like. I wish the image of you in my heart would never be tainted, but it is - we just gotta hold on the beautiful memories that we created which would always be that beautiful, that perfect, that unchanged, even as we both have changed. That said, I'm glad we're back to being friends again, although nothing will ever be the same like before. If you ever see this, just remember that there was once a time that I was willing to go to the moon and back for you, and you only.
7. You're like the big sister that I never had and I wouldn't know what school would be like without you :( As usual, I probably don't show it as much too, but I'm really very thankful that i found a girlfriend like you in this scary place, someone who actually bothers looking out for me, someone whom I connect with on so many levels, it's pretty sweet ♥ Thank you for being my 2nd pair of eyes, and for being as aware as me when it comes to everything, and for being the most sensitive people around. I love all our HTHTs, and remember what I said! :) I sincerely think if there was someone who deserves to meet the right one, it would be you.. Sometimes I feel that I want you to meet him before I meet mine, for real. ♥
8. I don't know how you do it - how you make me feel protected and that you will let no one hurt me. For that, I know I always take for granted, but you know how much I appreciate it right :) It's fate when 2 people meet, but you know they're truly meant to be in each other's lives, somehow, when they're still so tight many years on. I don't know if I told you this before, but you will make a really good boyfriend. So the girl who eventually gets your heart is a truly lucky one! :)
9. You vanished, although I know where you went. Go be busy, go find yourself, go do what you have to do for yourself, but remember you can always come to me if you need help/advice/a listening ear. If there are a few people who have absolute faith in you, please always remember I'm always one of them! :)
10. To my future husband: you don't have to be the most good-looking, richest, smartest (although this is my downfall), most capable or nicest guy I will ever know. You just have to be the one who loves me the most, and whom I will go to the moon and back for you too. We don't have to stay in a huge house, drive a swanky car, buy all the branded materials, but we will have the sweetest love, the loveliest kids, and the happiest lives together. You don't have to surprise me with all the romantics all the time, you don't have to buy me the prettiest diamond ring, you don't have to change because of me.. you just have to promise to stick around for long (or forever), and not quit on me like others have. Because if you can't love me at my worst, how can you deserve to love me at my best? ♥
Wow, this took longer than I expected! While reading this again, I realized that I'm actually quite a secretive person oops! I mean, like I said, unless you're the person mentioned or you're one of those that I tell everything to, you will never be able to know for sure who is who! Yay win.
Okay okay, back to Econs!
1. Although I don't show it as much as I feel it, I'm really very happy that you found someone you are finally not cynical about. Treasure him, teach him how to cherish you, and remember this all the time (something I never learnt) - just because someone doesn't love you the way you like, it doesn't mean he doesn't love you. I'm sorry that I was going through a very bitter and extremely cynical phase of my life, and if I did not give you as much support as I should have, I'm sorry :( Just remember I'll always be here for you, like you were for me ♥
2. This is for 2 people: I'm honestly very happy and amazed how we got SO much closer over our similar ordeals. That happened one after another (magic of destiny huh hurhur), and that no one else around us would have understood but each other. Thank you for always slapping me awake everytime I lapse into my 'moments', and for always being around for me to rant and whine to! (And vice-versa also okay - I ALSO ALWAYS NAG AT YOU 2!) S****** LOVE! ♥
3. Although I can't be there, I sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, wish you all the best in the rest of your life. Please don't make any more mistakes (even if you might think they aren't wrong per se, I'm telling you they are.) and treasure what you have. You might think she's dumb but I assure you, she isn't. And P.S., I think I've served all the due karma I deserve.
4. You're the gay BFF that every girl has (it's SO obvious who this is -.-), and I'm so glad you're mine ;) My gay BFF, not mine. I don't think I ever told you this before, but love changed you, both good and bad. But either way, I still like the way you are. Thank you for always being there to knock some sense into my thick skull and heart that knows no limits, and for being my #1 bitching partner. I think the way we fight and bicker is something others will find hard to emulate, so thank God for this chemistry that we share, and thank God for blessing me with such a friend in college :)
5. You are the one that got away; you are the one that let me go because you "thought I deserved better"; you are the one believed in me when no one else did; you are the one who would somehow always come back even after leaving my side and letting me down; you are the one that always got me thinking of the 'what ifs'. Believe me when I say I'm truly happy for you - you found something I didn't, and at the end you got the better end of our 'deal' (I think). Don't beat yourself up over what happened - it was never your fault and it was not something you (or anyone for that matter) could have prevented anyway. What was meant to happen would have; what was meant to end would too.
6. To my #1 risky asset; everytime I see you, the first thing that pops into my head: "WHY?" Up till now, I still want to know why, but I know you yourself don't even know why, and even if you do, you know that nothing you say would ever be enough for me. It's getting clearer and clearer to me why we didn't work out (and that's good), but that also made me see a side of you that I don't like. I wish the image of you in my heart would never be tainted, but it is - we just gotta hold on the beautiful memories that we created which would always be that beautiful, that perfect, that unchanged, even as we both have changed. That said, I'm glad we're back to being friends again, although nothing will ever be the same like before. If you ever see this, just remember that there was once a time that I was willing to go to the moon and back for you, and you only.
7. You're like the big sister that I never had and I wouldn't know what school would be like without you :( As usual, I probably don't show it as much too, but I'm really very thankful that i found a girlfriend like you in this scary place, someone who actually bothers looking out for me, someone whom I connect with on so many levels, it's pretty sweet ♥ Thank you for being my 2nd pair of eyes, and for being as aware as me when it comes to everything, and for being the most sensitive people around. I love all our HTHTs, and remember what I said! :) I sincerely think if there was someone who deserves to meet the right one, it would be you.. Sometimes I feel that I want you to meet him before I meet mine, for real. ♥
8. I don't know how you do it - how you make me feel protected and that you will let no one hurt me. For that, I know I always take for granted, but you know how much I appreciate it right :) It's fate when 2 people meet, but you know they're truly meant to be in each other's lives, somehow, when they're still so tight many years on. I don't know if I told you this before, but you will make a really good boyfriend. So the girl who eventually gets your heart is a truly lucky one! :)
9. You vanished, although I know where you went. Go be busy, go find yourself, go do what you have to do for yourself, but remember you can always come to me if you need help/advice/a listening ear. If there are a few people who have absolute faith in you, please always remember I'm always one of them! :)
10. To my future husband: you don't have to be the most good-looking, richest, smartest (although this is my downfall), most capable or nicest guy I will ever know. You just have to be the one who loves me the most, and whom I will go to the moon and back for you too. We don't have to stay in a huge house, drive a swanky car, buy all the branded materials, but we will have the sweetest love, the loveliest kids, and the happiest lives together. You don't have to surprise me with all the romantics all the time, you don't have to buy me the prettiest diamond ring, you don't have to change because of me.. you just have to promise to stick around for long (or forever), and not quit on me like others have. Because if you can't love me at my worst, how can you deserve to love me at my best? ♥
Wow, this took longer than I expected! While reading this again, I realized that I'm actually quite a secretive person oops! I mean, like I said, unless you're the person mentioned or you're one of those that I tell everything to, you will never be able to know for sure who is who! Yay win.
Okay okay, back to Econs!