2nd last week of Rag!

Jul 28, 2010 03:36

I have concluded that Rag truly makes one emo. I mean, I have had my fair share of emo moments and even complete days, that truly make you miserable. But, I'm seeing increasingly more of my comrades falling to this emo bug, and it kinda sucks that I can't help them much. I mean, when one's emo or just feeling down for no particular reason, no one can really help them except themselves. And, we all know that we'll get out of it somehow.

This week has been less of an emo week I suppose - it's a wonder the difference my boyfriend being around at Rag makes. I believe a large part of my positivity and optimism this week is due to his mere presence, and also because as things start coming up and taking shape, the things we have to do become more concise and we really do complete the To-Do list I give them at the start of every day. It's very encouraging how we finish up everything on the list (and sometimes abit more), and then I give them a early debrief and an early night. (Although we have all concluded at the end of this month plus, that we are ALL nocturnal beings, and we don't start operating until after lunch time. Welcome to Brag.)

But yes, back to the boyfriend. Him being him, he can't just sit around and do nothing and think that giving me all the moral and emotional support that he knows I need (especially at this stage) is enough. He needs to do SOMETHING, that involves him utilizing his big-ass brain that I adore, and his hands. Which is really fine by me, because I'm half the time too busy to really think about how I can or should entertain him - so, if he can keep himself duly occupied, I'm good too! He has been helping me construct my wings, which honestly, I don't freaking understand how he comes up with the things he comes up with. I look at them and go "ORH." and he knows that I don't get anything, but I make him explain to me anyway.

So, although he can be an ass most of the time and never fails to irritate me AND my friends, he still deserves to be called an angel for being here at all. While it took him one entire month to start staying over (like he's doing this entire week HOORAAAAYY), the understanding part of me knows why and appreciates the fact that he's still here. And that packing for a week of overnight stay PLUS working clothes for the day is mega shag. And I know I have been nothing but demanding, annoying, constantly PMSy and just finding fault with the littlest things, but he has flared up at me not even once, and I honestly think that deserves one huge smoocha. It's either he's really even-tempered like that, or he's too tired from work to care about me and my tantrums and stress, or he just looks at me scream/laugh like a witch/panic/bitch/get angry/petty about/cry/stress out, and decides he still loves me and will take whatever shit I throw at him. Methinks, it's a combination of all 3!  Cos he's a typical GUY GUY, who's completely unromantic and non-sensitive like that hahaha. Okay but honestly, his patience for demanding me only makes me realize that maybe he's really good for me, in more ways than I ever knew :)

And for the past 2 nights, I have been dutifully putting him to bed, and subsequently annoying him by talking to him non-stop for the next 20 mins, when I know he wants/has to sleep cos he has work the next day. HAHAHHA I'm really terrible. But I just love talking about everything and anything with him whaaatttt ♥ And besides, he knows once I start talking, I can't stop. Poor thing, but I love that boy!

OGAY. Back to serious business. There's really only 8 proper functional working days left of Rag, and NO I'm not panicking. I still dream/nightmare of Rag and the fucking shield, but NO, I AM NOT PANICKING. Like for real. I do have my panicky kcs moments still, but they are generally under control, thanks to my awesome team of comrades ♥

Alright, it's 4am, 1 hour past my targeted time to sleep tonight - SO GOODNIGHT WORLD :)

love, rag, friends, salty

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