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Okay! I screwed up big-time today.
Chem was some disaster. It was some WTF thing. Yeah, spell that out. It's just very demoralizing when you don't know how to do the paper. So much for feeling confident before that, so much for actually understanding your work... and then when you see the paper, you just get stumped.
JUST. VERY. DEMORALIZING. okay?
And I was telling some people how it's completely an art and a skill to be able to transform all your disappointment into energy to study for the History paper after that. It's like everything bad --> everything good, within a few minutes, or it will affect you very badly for your next paper.
SERIOUSLY, we should go and tell the school Admin that it is very stupid and unfair to do this to us. (Although I think we are the only class suffering this plight.)
So, we chopchop ate our lunch and got some energy back, before spending the entire time craaaaaming all the History stuff into our heads. I didn't even have time to finish reading through all my notes one more time. And I paid the price, very heavily.
I stupidly intelligently didn't study China, when actually anyone who uses that thing you call a brain can totally guess it will come out. And HOHOHO it totally did! Like, the entire question was on China, China, China. I just muttered the F word when I saw China. SERIOUSLY!!! And not as if the other questions were anything easy to come by.
I just kept chanting to myself, "Shit", "Fuck", "I cannot falterrrrr!", admist heavy sighs of resignation. But i know I can't give up, and not like I will anyways. Just not my nature.
HEEEEELPPPP JIU MING AH. I pray that even if I don't get a B, I don't want a D!! ):
SO. VERY. DEMORALIZING.
I think I'm pretty distraught, but more of amused that I completely just fucked up today OOPS. I think the whole severity of the issue will hit me tonight. Yikes.
But before that happens, I will channel all the remaining energy and positivity I have left to do Math! If I even screw up Math, my entire CT1 will just be some goner. ):
But till then, let's do Math! :)
Chem was some disaster. It was some WTF thing. Yeah, spell that out. It's just very demoralizing when you don't know how to do the paper. So much for feeling confident before that, so much for actually understanding your work... and then when you see the paper, you just get stumped.
JUST. VERY. DEMORALIZING. okay?
And I was telling some people how it's completely an art and a skill to be able to transform all your disappointment into energy to study for the History paper after that. It's like everything bad --> everything good, within a few minutes, or it will affect you very badly for your next paper.
SERIOUSLY, we should go and tell the school Admin that it is very stupid and unfair to do this to us. (Although I think we are the only class suffering this plight.)
So, we chopchop ate our lunch and got some energy back, before spending the entire time craaaaaming all the History stuff into our heads. I didn't even have time to finish reading through all my notes one more time. And I paid the price, very heavily.
I stupidly intelligently didn't study China, when actually anyone who uses that thing you call a brain can totally guess it will come out. And HOHOHO it totally did! Like, the entire question was on China, China, China. I just muttered the F word when I saw China. SERIOUSLY!!! And not as if the other questions were anything easy to come by.
I just kept chanting to myself, "Shit", "Fuck", "I cannot falterrrrr!", admist heavy sighs of resignation. But i know I can't give up, and not like I will anyways. Just not my nature.
HEEEEELPPPP JIU MING AH. I pray that even if I don't get a B, I don't want a D!! ):
SO. VERY. DEMORALIZING.
I think I'm pretty distraught, but more of amused that I completely just fucked up today OOPS. I think the whole severity of the issue will hit me tonight. Yikes.
But before that happens, I will channel all the remaining energy and positivity I have left to do Math! If I even screw up Math, my entire CT1 will just be some goner. ):
But till then, let's do Math! :)