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I am so tired of being sad, I have no energy left. It's draining everything out of me. I cry for no reason all the time, and I am bitter at everything that has to do with love and happy couples..
It feels like I've been dumped..
He called me, drunk from the gutter outside his house on Saturday. He went on about how I was the one thing in his life that kept him going these days, that whenever he thinks of me, he smiles, and how I'm the one he wants to spend the rest of his life with. He even said that he doesn't look at me as his girlfriend anymore, but his partner. I started laughing, he knows how I feel about the word partner, so he changed it to his life partner. I thought that was cute..
That was our last proper call. There was a storm and phone lines were down for several days, and when we talked again,we were cut off mid-way, and I never got to tell him that I love him before he left Australia.
He's somewhere flying over the Pacific ocean right about now, and for the next two months we'll barely be able to talk...
I don't know how I'll get through this..
It feels like I've been dumped..
He called me, drunk from the gutter outside his house on Saturday. He went on about how I was the one thing in his life that kept him going these days, that whenever he thinks of me, he smiles, and how I'm the one he wants to spend the rest of his life with. He even said that he doesn't look at me as his girlfriend anymore, but his partner. I started laughing, he knows how I feel about the word partner, so he changed it to his life partner. I thought that was cute..
That was our last proper call. There was a storm and phone lines were down for several days, and when we talked again,we were cut off mid-way, and I never got to tell him that I love him before he left Australia.
He's somewhere flying over the Pacific ocean right about now, and for the next two months we'll barely be able to talk...
I don't know how I'll get through this..